just bloghopped frm various people's blog.
&wow , sec one &dah tunjuk belang. tho its partly th guy's fault .
this proves that all malay guys are assholes eh.
i hate him(s) fr playing with my dear gf(s) .
using them as a replacement , fr pleasure . urgh.
if only im a serial killer, i would have murdered these guys alive.
oh &tht sec one kid, jgn berangan bnyk2 la okaaay, you dont know what secondary school life is like.
stop showing that shitface of yours that never smiles.
its not jealousy, cos youre just an average looking kid in sec 1, who's so excited to ever wear heels. hah !
tak tau malu , go back to ur ex anytime you like when u knw he's somehow with another girl, cos you know ur ex was nvr really over you.
you know, th way othr girls will think of you is that youre some boyf snatcher.
kay, all im trying to say is, stop being a brat. cos i think you're gna hve a hate club anytime soon (:

okay, i want to at least fast on th first day ! what else, its on th udi course.
but menses , urghh. i hope it ends tmr . pfft .

baby let me love you, let me want you ,

someone tak jadi go out with me, ape je >:(
whatever, i think my moodswings are here again. im stuffing myself with food.
heh, i realise i've been taking up this stupid habit fr quite some time. &i alr weigh 50kg ? hahaha.
tho i still look thin. kay. see my mood changing. argh.
i want to go out ! thanks eh , now i didnt even go ecp -.- lalala
haha. its okay (: oh, udi was HELL. 1 OUT OF 4 DAYS DONE. 3 more days to go ):
today is just half day &im like half dead. benang terklua also they wna minus marks ? ahaha wow. pumping alot. running around parade square. &i lost my gold footdrill badge, panicked.
but lucky , sir fairuz kind of gave another one to me . hahah ! free (:
im gna get my sleep after like , 214235 nights, since i have nothing to do. goodnight people.

hanya kaulah yang ku sayang ,

okay. been busy with exco &teacher's day &studies lately.

so firstly, i wana say sorry to my girlfirends cause i know i havent been spending time with them . please understandd . i have a cca , and exco . i'll try to make time fr u guys okay ? (:
&&bedah &meryl. thanks fr the cookies and brownies ! tho someone stole my brownie while i was on duty just now ): sadd . i rly wanted to taste th brownies.

okay, so mass walk was , stupid. was stationed with farzanah, which is a fun thing. but many people went behind to smoke, &came out where i was stationed. assholes. &some teachers kpokpo wna control th traffic. pfft. our job la okay. &there was a HUGE delay . so time to get ready fr concert was shorter.
so blabla. one of th in charge of balloons and deco . ranran everywhere like mad people. tsk .
concert went well . good feedback (: so yea, another successful project.

UDI TMR ! i dont wana go ): k, lanyard, lanyard, lanyard. k gooo .

rawr. i just found out hw to change my mozilla theme . its so cuttee .haha. thers like cute symbols everywhere ! :D &&im gna pass my next amath test. MY PROMISE TO MYSELF. &i failed my science overall. someone care to teach me chemistry ? ):
kay, im currently chatting with isa after like 23543654765 days. hahaha!


MERYL & BEDAHHHH ; PLEASE DONT BE SADD. both of you sadsad, i also follow sad. i do want my treat frm both of you if i can prove to u guys that i have moved on; sooo you guys cant be sad &&cheer up like me also kayy (: meryl, if i can do it aft 1 year plus, i belief you can. but first!, talk to him first okaay. you dont want any miscommunication. &&bedahh, be strong. its time you really give him a good lecture. give him time to know who he really wants (:

hello frienddd! heh. i was boreded;

&&what can you learn from being in a relatonship ? all malay guys are assholes/ bastards / players (:
dum dum di dam dum dum di dam da. heheheheeh-ooops (: i saw him swallow th whole burger. haha ! cute okaaay. hehe . k shh(:

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE QUARREL . HATE IT . MEMEKAK LAHH. ARGH. i feel so scared :(

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by

long day yesterday . exco , nana house, fireworks , &chalet. my mood was totally down before th fireworks cause i was super tired . pfft . home at 11+ ? wrong day fr outing .

Sometimes, things just doesn't go the way you want . It applies to everyone in this world . So, just let time be the factor . I'm not good at encouraging words but all i can do is to stay by your side and keep you strong . I disturb you because i want you to stop thinking about him . It's better to laugh it off . Some guys aren't worthed it . I like to thank you for being such a great listener , a great partner, my partner in jokes and all those stuffs (you know ..) I feel very at esae when i have heart to heart talks with you . Thank you alright . I know i'm nagging far too much but i just wanna let you know that no matter what , i'll be here to walk this long road with you .

- To Lyly ♥


wriiten by wj (: aww, im so touched (:(:

SOMEONE , ACCOMPANY ME GO SOMEWHERE, ANYWHERE, FRM 2-4PM. nana cant make it ):

i smile up to th sky , &i know i'll be alright (:
hahahahaha. i look like an idiot.

aniway, i have a problem with you. you are an asshoolee. i have no intention to talk bad bout you. but WDV. for th sake of we females, oh god. wth do u think ure doing ??

c'mon. i know youre a better guy. well, maybe last time. idk bout now. but hey, dont take girls fr granted mann . esp now , since u have someone new. im gna put aside my feelings fr now . so, DONT corrupt her th way u did to me . shes like so innocent so please, get hold of yourself.
what im trying to say is, stop acting like an animal . i cant stand guys like you. who makes use of girls fr NAFSU . what a let downn . youre some guy who's desperate fr attention and PLEASURE . urgh . i knw im no one to say this, but pls, change ur freaking attitude.

oh, i burnt th marlboro blue card alr today (: im so happppppy i did it ! now is th chipmunk turn . muahahaha. ohhhhhhhhh, i think HE knowwwwwws :D

hello world (:
i accidentally hit th iron with my wrist. haha oww .
i want to treat this panau2 on my face asap . i think dad's gna bring me to doctor. idk .

oke, day went alright. no morn assembly. i was fasting to pay back last year's one. &i saw nana &kyra otw to school . &nana offered me this bread+egg. god, i ate it cause th smell was soo appetizing. so yea, my fast was not counted. pfft, thanks nana . hahah.

then day as pernormal . slept most of th time cos head was feeling god damn heavy th whole day. thn skipped amaths class fr 1 hr. plus another period of recess. hehe . &someone sat right in front of me, doing who knows what. so i asked eliz to sit straight &keep still(: haha! ohoh. &kyra was signalling to me something , i turned, &HE was looking. aww, so cute okay(: hahahaha. k stop .

then eng, sleeppt. &yasmin gave up on us. cos everyone was either sleeping, blasting off their mp3 using their speakers (yes, chaotic ) or playing football. see, my class is beyond mdm yasmin's control -.- &i wonder hw im gna study fr olvls next year. then assembly was at ava room. i sat in 3e (: watched some teenager related stuff. d&t, hands-on (: cut wood &etc .huahuaha. then went home.

ladidaditum . SATURDAY! (: im gna go shopping with nana , im gna watch fireworks with ncdcc ndp contingent, im gna go vivian's chalet, im gna party alllllll night ! hopefully my mum agrees to let me sleepover (: teeheeeeeeeee . what a long post. heh. i just feel like talking alot.kay goodbye (:

c'mon girl , blog more. i wana know more. first month anni ? ha-ha . wow .
i wonder why did he still message me . you know, what goes around comes around dude.
go figure .

i miss those times when you would at least smile when u pass ;

-ages ago (:

hahaha. you know, smth cheered me up today . it was after lunch &my mood was really down . but, i saw my sec1 boys. they saw me &they made way by moving aside at both corners. so i walked in th middle, &they greeted me all together with a cheeky 'hello maam.' haha ! cute okay ! really cheered me up ! (:(:

ohoh ! binomial theorem is so fun when u understand it! &im so proud that i actually studied this topic myself cause i didnt come to school last week, with th help of tution (:

-stranger ,

I need a little more luck than a little bit. cause every time I get stuck the words won't fit. &every time that I try I get tongue tied. I'll need a little good luck to get me by this time .
it does feel like the end;

-boy you'll always be in my heart .

nothing's gna be alright . cause evth's crashing down . i cant take this. i cant stand you . my wait was for nothing. yeah, now u guys can say 'see i told you.'
th day i feared most came ? &i dont know how to face it .

disappointed, by everyone.
i wished i was stuck in ubin forever. my presence doesn't matter here aniway.
&i can cry non-stop there for nobody will ever care or know.
i fucking miss you .

evtm i see this, it reminds me of you (:

you dont kno hw special i felt when u lied next to me durin tht camp night.
you dont kno hw secured &safe i felt.
you dont kno hw afraid i was tht i was rather quiet.
you dont kno hw much i yearn fr tht night to come again .
you dont kno hw much i want to have th past again;
where you held me in ur arms; &i felt trouble-free.
&when i felt that you're th only thing that mattered.
they say let time heal evth , but how long will that be ?
cos im taking TOO long .

NATIONAL CAMP, GOODBYE .

a memorable experience, that comes once in a lifetime (:






lestaluhuuu(:

-starbucks, thanks again maam vivian foong (:
ndp was really great. wont forget those trainings. heh. lovelove (:oh, &listen to th song playing. (thanks syir).

myra said i didnt do anth to get him back. &yea, it hit me hard. i guess im stupid eh ? or im just afraid of getting rejected. these days seem so heartacheing. u visit me in my sleep every night. youre th one i think of each time i wake up. youre th one ive always wanted. you're th one i regard now as some stranger. but i miss you , i rly do .

today morning suck big time . imagine i never ever went up on stage. thank you.

so yup. amzing race fr sec 1s was alright. kecoh laa.
i partnered joshua, we got our exco collar pins. went to eat with them at simpang.
&went near viv hse to do some project.

okay, its near 12. &i have a big parade tmr.
but i have something to say.

i didnt say it was ur fault. hey , i did say sorry. i admit i have alot of pride, &im ashame to admit my mistakes, but it was bcos of what u said. show tantrum? make time fr her ? heh, what about us ? pls understand, we are tight on schedule. &here are both of us, trying to make time fr u guys. ade exco then u guys wana go out. so wht can i do ? i hav to prioritise okay. how long hav u knwn me? almost 3yrs ? i can boil up in less than a sec. i use vulgaritie(its normal when ure angry) so deal with it. i wasnt even referring to you. &what bothers me most; you and your kawan2 baru always against me. urgh, u know what ? we'll all talk someday. ONLY US FOUR.


&u guys didnt even bother telling myra u all not coming. why i kpo ? cos i dont want her to feel lonely. didnt even bother to come &giv us support


oh &yea, i miss that guy named r.a. ): oh god, &im gna leave fr camp next week. can die.
wish me luck fr tmr . nights people .

before we became staffs (: went thru thick &thin together since sec1. aku sayang diaa :D

• joel tan rui zhe(?) gave me one of his sony ericsson earpieces :D
  THANK YOU SO MUCH .
• assembly was super wthell . iliya sat beside me, irritating.
• training was, not so great. had a short talk with sec 2s. better.
• sec 1s was kecoh ! but as usual, im proud of them (: thought them until siezing and maju(:
• met haikal lestaluhuu at bedok to find stuff. then home at 8 (:
  

yayy, and highlight of th day. we got our staff seargent ranks .
&ms foong said she was proud of us four and our 2 seniors :D

DONT ASSUME IF YOU CANT SEE ANTH, K THANKS (:
cos it will always come back to him, even tho you've found someone new;


okay. been busy studying, preparing fr national camp, and national day .
aniway, ndp's this saturday. amazing how each training passed in a blink of an eye.
getting rank tmr, hehe. MAAM LYANA:D
maybe meeting that haikal lestaluhu(haha!) aft training tmr. idk ?
&my class is full of freaks who are cheeky &straightforward. shit, bluek.
wont be going to school next week fr 4days. im gna miss my friends): &seeing him&him .
oh, HE didnt come todaay! ): saddd. ohh, its funny when guys give those cheeky smile at you. haha! scary at th same time -.-

okay, im so irritated by smth.
bonded? hah. its you all dont make us feel comfortable, not we dont want.
i cant be bothered anyway. my cadets make me feel contented with my cca ald.
they're rowdy, but lovely (: &i dare say, th unit is making a fast improvement just in 2 yrs(:
okay, im a pig. cos ive been sleeping alot lately. goodbye (:

who are you? it feels like you are a stranger to me . &im helpless &confused.

had menses when i reached th holding place. unlucky . thanks GB fr th pad. heh -.-
&&thanks msfoong fr th starbucks. i promise you th best fr th unit.
oh yea , im a freaking staff seargent already :DD

spot me. [you can try if you're one stupid asshole(: ]
credits to fawwaz (:

i dont know whats happening, &i dont wana know .

IM SPEECHLESS.

REALLY. wrong signs to th wrong person .
oh shit.

how , HE didnt know . HE knew bout some other stuff .
godamnit. i cant even get things straight bout him.
all i wanted was youyouoyouou, ah, WHATEVER LYANA .


stop it . IGNORE . K, HABIS CERITA .

:"((((((((((((((((((((
something's bothering me reaaaaly badly. i want to die &end this misery. argh .