hehehhehe. yea , so much for no mood to raya . someone's msg lifted up my spirit ! hahaha. salam sayang (: MOK(: okay shudap lyly . but seriously, thanks eh (:

from NANA's blog -.-
Im sorry to the person i named Pak Sayor for my friend to keep it secret identity.

AHAHA. SO NOW YOU KNOW . pfft .

so yaa , i just played bunga api ! :DDDD
knowing it might seems strange, feeling my luck has changed (:

I’m gonna play till I bleed,
And I’m gonna make you fly tonight

hari raya's tmr , &im th least excited bout it . im suppose to help clean th house, but im watching madtv at youtube bcos of imraan . god, its damn funny. one of th video is about pornstar registration ? &it reminded me of my class! hahaha . okay you dont need to know why(:

im so lazy to go raya tmr. but i want my collection . its so hot &why th hell do we need to wear baju kurung-.- tsk . mine's like so gatal due to th sewing &material. urgh. plus , my voice is retarded. huahua ! :x

okay,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MALAY PEEPS :D
yay yay, cash flowing innn~

lyly, syir , nana (: &what happened to our 'so happy together' friendship ? just wondering eh(:

malay paper was okay. nose leaking. carried long toilet paper everywhere-.- slept when everyone didnt-.- i have a feeling im gna flung my paper 2. haha! whatever .
then went to cut hair with girlfies<3 rained): thn homme . yea, why am i posting everyday ? cos i cant stay away frm my lappy. but hey, im still revising while chatting . i multi task well okay (:

im losing my voice! D:

yeah, maybe . Oi ! D:

i have fever , i have malay papers tmr. BUT YET. I MADE MY FIRST KETUPAT ! :D
k stop it lyly. go study. heheeee ~

im just a 3rd party. but this girl is getting on my nerves. if you dont bother abt her confroting you, or you dont even know she existed, why bother talking shit bout her in ur blog ? think lah , u dont make sense AT ALL. got so many things to comment bout her on ur blog, why not just say to her face to face. but people ask bout ur blog, u can act dumb. urgh, i feel like slapping ur god damn face. okay ssh .

went to msia again ytd, got fever on th trip there. menses too . badbad timing.
i looked like i was gona fall &die anytime .
malay paper tmr. im gna aim fr a1! :D kayy. my nose is leaking again . bye !

hello, i miss you, friend.
&i read smth somewhere. i guess i was just part of ur experiments to find out who you rly wanted eh ? hahah. thanks alot.
&now im confused. im enjoying life, but why do i have to have that sense of , sympathy , if i were to hurt them. i seriously dont know. i miss those times when you were here to give me advice, like the past, when we were just friends.


-Dedicated to the one i'll always love, the one who really messed me up.

But in my heart you start to grow on me, kind of suddenly.

wokay. tmr's first paper alr . im not ready fr science. (oh god. someone, help me with chem!) kay. have been doing lots of practice fr amaths. &i passed my recent amaths test. 11/16 ((: for binomial theorem only. but yea, im god damn happy . &i got highest for malay ! see, play hard &study hard (: heh . i think im gna do geog now.

aniway, school has been alright . yasmin is becoming more irritating each day. &ive been sleeping in class cos ive been sleeping so late these days.

oh, &i dont even have th mood to raya . i only have 1 pair of kebaya , 1 set of kuih (haha!) , no new acessories or shoes. wahh, might as well tak paya raya okayy-.-

kay then, good luck fr english papers tmr people (:

you can wait fr ur 5minute interval some more lahh , i wont bother trying to giv u a chance to meet up anymore. wait, why am i even trying ? heh. just dont regret. chances dont come so often okay . just rmbr, you wont miss th water until its gone (:

You might call me damaged goods, but I'm one of a kind.

buka-ed with gfs today. tho bedah &myra cant make it.
went to nana hse aft school. played with adam , bathed &changed.
kyra came, laid on th bed together and started gossiping !
hahaha. TRUE FRIENDS EH NANA &KYRA.
HAHAHA. inside joke, dont assume anth yea (: so yea , camwhored,
then off to bugis. topshop cos kyra need to do smth there ,
went banquet &settled down fr buka puasa. &meryl came soon after.
then walked arnd , & i headed home first (:

. says:
lol okay
u sound very happy and carefree leh

can life get any better ? :D

omg, im eating dark choc + rasberry. super duper nice !
wokay, back to amaths , goodnight people (:

okay, im blogging fr th sake of someone. heh
so yea. nothing much today,

fought with mdm yasmin quite alot. thanks to leon.
slept alot during lessons. &as usual, guys in my class being those irritating fuckers .
snapped pics of me and stuff. &leon , sitting in front of me ,
talking dirty. hello, im fasting. not like i care, but dont go overboard -.-
cos if you do , im gna rembat you upside downn :D
then chem, mr lee gave us free period cos he cant be bothered anymore-.- so we walked around. &went to sit at th room beside th library with th malay guys.
amaths test, binomial theorem. i think i can pass :D D&T. boring .

ahh , i feel so empty now. &im having second thoughts . ah bye.

Scratched and bruised, a little used. but baby, I work fine.

heh , first attempt to make brownies on my own . yea, kind of retarded.
whatever, it smells good from here (:

aniways, trip to msia ytd was fustrating. world population increasing rapidly.
gosh , soon i will have to share my house with other families D: okay shutap .
so yea, restaurants there were all full . people there has certainly upgrade their standards. haha. k so , we only buka-ed at 7.30 at delifrance-.- but still, their service sucks to th core . they pay me, i can do a better job la sehh . k then shopped arnd. bought bodyshop perfume, nice smell (: duh . k then walked arnd some more,
&bought levis jeans :D

okay then reached home at 1. &no one woke up fr sahur. haha. i almost dropped dead today .
huhuhaha. where are you sehhh . grr .

hey hoo :D

im reposting again fr ytd, cos blogger is being retarded.
-
english oral was okay ((: , i guess.
hahahah. tho i smiled alotalotalot. but i was confident (:
hehehe. &i cant stand th botak teacher's face. cos he kept smiling too.
&i heard th guys behind laughing. haikal said th teacher was actually enjoying th view -.-

hehuuuuuuu ~ thenn rushed down, cos someone was waiting.
thennnn ,silent bus ride home ..... hahaha . k kidding .
thanks (:

okay, im so confused . what do i really want ? or rather, who .
i guess i should just let time heal everything .
-
kay so im going off to msia at 2 . yea, great timing, when eoys are actually around th corner -.-
currently doing geog(:
oh, i remembered that im suppose to go scdf hq today. what happened ?
everyone forgot -.- damnit .

i think , i miss you (: hahahaha . k stop .

Is it real or just another crush?

heloooo people. spot me, if you can (: [hinthint: top row (:]

i just got locked from my house cos i didnt bring my keys thanks to my dad.
&i just went in like 15mins ago ? -.-

almost broke fast thanks to pe . badminton(: woosh .
then passed cheongsam to farz. &some people like wenjia was being sooo irritating, -.-
then served detention again today. i hope its th last. eoys are coming abrahamm , heh . she was in a good mood today (: yay .

oral tmr , diedie. i get that botak guy . haha !

kay lyly. buck up . stop sleeping during maths, science & english lessons ! stop skipping class -.- stop getting into trouble . k goodgirl (:

fucking stop msging me, syiok sendiri pe . tak sedar diri . ish>:(

are you holding back like th way i do ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIANNING! :D

u know whaat, let me tell u s story (:

we were sent fr detention , along with 4na girls. then abs gave them work to do .
we exp students werent told to do anth, so we self studied. until 3pm , she let th na go ,
&she asked th exp if we finsihed what she told us to do , which was NOTHING .
so she told us to start a 1000 word reflection, while she went fr meeting.
which took ages, so we finished it up, and went . since it was a friend's birthday.
&according to wenjia, she tore our reflections &we have to do DOUBLE TMR .

&what , i got swearing ceremony at stpats tmr . ahh, abs can GO AND DIEE , BIAS .
take away all th post from me if you want, just leave my freaking cca alone.

okay, today was alright i guess . just got into trouble . so yea. long story.
aft detention, went to sher's hse to celebrate qianning's birthday. then went to ecp at 6 ?
buka-ed there with farz, imraan, radin &idk who. haha ! &again, i didnt even knew he existed.
k stop it. then walkwalk . &homme (:

okay, i look so diff in th picha , heh.

aniway, today was kind of an unexpected day ;
started of, being late for school . what, bus late lahh . not i late-.- thenthen. evth was fine until social studies . omgodd ,

i swear th whole of 3d is so freaking high today .
&me, being seated next to th freaking window, was distracted. there were guys at th staircase and volleyball court. and also farz, i waved at her &when i turned back, ms pradeepa was standing right beside me .
pfft, she said i am always looking at th sec4 guys.
PUH-LEASE LAH . &She made me stand at th back, &also write one essay. so bias laah , k wdv.

then farz gave me th kuih cornflakes. THANK YOU :D
&&SOMEONE NOW OWES ME SWENSENS ICE CREAM! (: see, who say i dont dare. ahaha.
thenn, cme. guys were being irritating. kicking th ball at my ASS. i swear i could have killed them ony by one -.- k then d&t as usuaaal until so late. then hooomeee (:

oh, shit . guess who will be one of th 3D's oral tester. MR GHAZ JUNIOR.
OMG ALL TH TEACHERS, WHY, WHY HIM .

do i , or dont i ?

OMG. EARTH TO MY CADETS. ANSWER MY CALLS! ARGH.
damnit .
_

okay, i feel better now . thanks to everyone who cheered me up, namely fawwaz & isa .
fawwaz rly talked some sense into me -.-
if i can have th diedie must do well kind of spirit for ncdcc, why cant i fr my academics ?
if i survived th harsh trainings, why cant i survive by just remembering facts and formulas ?
yess ,think positively, look at th brightside of life :]

heee , see. i have th best-estest friends around mee :D

okay, upcoming events im looking forward to! (:
>scdh hq visit (ohmygosh!)
>exco, japan ! :D
>OBS(ncdcc)

hehehehe.

everyone &thier stupid false promises.
make me fall for it, then they get what they want, &just forget me like that .
yea , what do i fucking want excalty ? i dont know.
each time i have a dream , it gets crushed.
so what now ? eoy , ncdcc, relationships , fucking stupid family,
which i think cant be bothered by me anymore.
yes, i may be independent and reliable , buy hey, i still need th care and attention .
im still a fucking 15 year old girl who has her needs and wants .
&yea , im those type that has to be rewarded if i achieve smth .
or i wont do it , cos whats th point right ?

whats th point of doing all these when ure gona die someday , aniway.

Friday night beneath the stars , everything I need is right here by my side :D

okay, i have to blog abt this .
cause i sooooo freaking agree with nadhirah ; regarding th lower sec dating upper sec thingy .
haha ! its so.. unsightly . haha . even he, agrees (:
&what, their relationship only lasts like , 1month ? or even shorter -.-
oh, and th often use of 'iloveyou' . hahahah. yea, that word is getting cheaper each day.

thank god im not in a relationship . hah !

okay, i just watched youtube videos. regarding th year 2012 ? which is only like in 4 years time. &im getting so freaking paranoid alr. what is it like in afterlife ? do i have enough time to erase all my sins ? is it rly true ? then what are we heading for in this world. what use is it to get ready fr my eoy's , or rather my Os. what is th fucking use of working hard in life and mugging fr exams when its gna be th end of th world aniway . wait, is it even gna happen in that year ? gosh , lyly stop . ure getting too paranoid. urgh, im so scared):

The reasons are gone, for why I was holding on to you .

i feel so hungraay now ): okay im bored. but im lazy to go out . how haikal ? hahaha . i want swenses . imagne the icecream ! omgosh . ah shutap , where youuuuuuuu ): nyahaha , k go study lyly .

(edited)

[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
eh , that boy wna go where ah ?
(-efortunc-) says:
i dunnoe
[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
wah, u know who im talking abt ?
(-efortunc-) says:
ya la
i can read you like a book

Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away, but I know this crush ain't going away;

okay nth much happened. went to buka with exco peeps ytd , today , class got scolded. ahh , lazy to elaborate. but leaders got scolded. &punished. &cos im frm exco, i need to write 50points on whats my duty as an exco member. hah , stupid or what.

ohoh ! smth so fucking stupid happened today . i've got a video of her fighting. hahahah .
"AHH . DONT CALL ME A CRAZY WOMEN ! " *slaps*
but im not gna be mean , by putting up th video here . heh.

u knoww what . im not gna care anymore. cos of th fact , that you have changed to some kind of asshole . makes me stop to think , that you were a waaaay better guy last time. &now ? heh. its okay, i'll just sit &watch this oh so drama love story (:
hah, TOLD YOU SO ;

skipped phy / chem . haha !

oh yea , i was doing my shorts underneath, cos it was dammn low; then joel and leon saw me lift my skirt. freaking embarrasing -.-

meryl , dont sad sad okay ? yea , that's malay guys . liars, assholes, unfaithful. most of them . dont worry ,anth , we'll be here to put that smile back on ur face alright ? we lovee youuu deaaaaaar <333

woooooshh ~

chatted with haikal . hahahaha. ABOUT MY FUTURE ! :D

Haikal Lesta ( HL) ♠ says:
ish
hahaha
then the maid jage ur children all?
tak save babe
haaha

[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
no lah .
children i want 2 .
one boy and one girl
hahahaha. then i take care myself
with husband lah , duh .
but i will give freedom to them
ya la .
i find job tht can go home ealy.
but earn alot .
like designer or smth
yea, i wna become designer (:
then can stay home what. when they still small i do work at home.
can take care skali .
hahah. i dont want more than 2.
eldest MUST be guy.
then can take care of the smaller sister.
-
AHAHAHA . SEEEE, I'VE PLANNED MY FUTURE (: k not really.

oh god, shdnt have came online. now im chatting non-stop when i was actually halfway through emaths revision -.- ohoh, i studied amaths too , again.
im so proud of myself (: ahahaha. k stop it >:((((((( rawr .
feels like i never knew you ,

&i wished i didnt see anth , cos now i know, it is really true .

give my love away , cause right here feels so cold .
&i wonder how long will i keep holding on ?

yeayea. i think this lame . had no intention to fight with you at all. cos its just a waste of time -.-
whatever , its not th matter of intefering aniway . aha . okay nana . actually i cant be bothered with all these small matters alr, cos its th last thing on my mind . why bother right. yesyes, you are right . im backing off . like isa said.
it takes a greater person to walk away (:
ahah. oh yea, thanks isa fr being there.

urgh , i wna go out &see my gfs. i reeaaaaaaaallly need to stress out . but at th same time , im mugging fr eoys like crazzzyy ~

hello. its 12.22am. &im studying a maths. why?
cos my family fought just now , &i was late fr tution, &mum got crazier .
&when i went to bed, she woke me up, &told me to study . stupiiiiiid right .
nvm , fr my own good so i can get ready fr eoy. im doing logarithms , omg. so rajin righhtt (:
&i look like a clown with bloodshot eyes and red nose -.- argh.
only god knows how i feel now ,

your 2 ncdcc bedok south UDIs! :Dfrom left; 2 udi ADMIRALTY, 2 udi BEDOKSOUTH .
best damn sir! :D -sir fairuz !
PEI HWA; (psst , not all 3 guys are udi okay . haha )
liutenant Jonathan ! last course fr him ): see, take picture also far apart. smue takut ! haha .


yayy ~ hard earned lanyard okaay ! (: other pics are with ms foong &sir fairuz. heee (:
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NANA' says:
damn funny sia
[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
he ask if i go mosque
[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
cos he evryday go terawih
wth
NANA' says:
....
go terawih but mentel
[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
he think i ustazah or what
NANA' says:
wtf is this
[b]LYLY ;[/b] says:
HAHAHA
NANA' says:
ghahah
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some things i'll never know , &i had to let go;
&tonight, i'll lie awake, feeling empty.

dear NADIA ,

yea ? you wana read this ? suresure.

first things first, im blogging this cause its th school holidays, or not, yea, would have gone to you face to face.
secondly, stop using harsh words like bitch, asshole etc. its so unpleasing to read. all you know is to makimakimaki , what, you think it affects people ? no .
aku bebual baik2, kau tkde cara nak bbual. see , this is what i meant when i say you dont know secondary school life. not trying to say i know evth , but i can say i've gone thru what ure gg thru now, &i regret speaking th way u are now .
th best way is to talk properly yeah, get that in ur head.

moving on,;me, tak sedar diri ? pls eh , im blogging fr th sake of my gf . yeayea , im just a 3rd party. but which girlf doesnt feel hurt when her own girf gets damn hurt ?
LANNGAR SATU, LANGGAR SEMUA . get this phrase into ur head.
read my post properly, i wasnt putting all th blame on you . i was barely saying what th people arnd you think of you. &you should realise that.
you dont know th situation , you didnt know what happened between them , so shut up.
&hey, im not judging you, who said i was ? learning point number one, dont ever assume (:
i just said 'shitface that never smiles'. cos why ? cos my gfs did smile at you, but you are like sooo arrogant. heh . get that ?
&you want to get into details ? i can too .
You wana know whats my problem with you ? its just th arorgant part. BUT SINCE, you wna get into details, heh. proves youre not that frienly friendly girl at all .

&since when did i ask you to look at me ? hahahaha. i didnt . so who asked you to look .
&why bother reading my blog if im not worth ur oh-so-pretty eyes ? hah , think before you say anth yea ? (:

yours truly,
LYANA (:

-your soon to be UDIs (: hopefully (:

yo yo . okay, im blogging despite feeling extremely fatigue .
thers some nerve on my left foot , which kene distorted or smth . &i can feel a pull evtm i walk / march. ouch .
&straines all over my arm muscles due to th swinging of arms and th mistgun. yes, th mistgun is heavy. &we can carry it th m16 way or th sar21 way. cool right (:
learnt how to use sword, tho only clts and officers can hold it . butbut th pace stick! learnt how to use it also ,
today UDI assesment. 3 sections ; consisting of commanding, execution , and teaching . just passed teaching. i swear i hate teaching. commanding ; sir fairuz was like ' kau telan microphone ke pe ? '
hahahaha. its considered as a compliment okaay (: then execution was alright.

blabla. tmr's parade alr . whole day rehearse fr parade. but i hav to go to CDA at lunch fr medical check up fr th OBS. kay set gooo , 3 OUT OF 4 DAYS DONE ALR.
oh, th course is worser than th snco course. th fasting makes it even worse.

but yea, i can do it! lyly stronng ! big day tmr (: pass out paraaaddee ~

oh god, death can come anytime. im not ready to die . seriously. seems like it was just yesterday that i accompanied wj to meet he and his gang. now - okay, rest in peace.