a hug would definitely be great now. i need to stress out mann ,

godd , i feel like a stranger to you .
next week is th only free week. outing peopleee, pleasssse . ugh, flu.

you lose th one you wanted cause you've taken her fr granted,

i miss everyone. im fucking bored. where did everyone go ? damnit , i miss everyone. enough of camps alr. enough of cca. i need to catch up. fucccck, someoneeee, socialise with meee. obs was great but it seemed like it was 5years.

oh yea, im back . i think i'll go catch my sleep first. hais, i miss everyone. k stop saying that .

i realised something, isnt that, 'mak' at th back . behind ... haha, k oops.

pump pump pump it out, exco's gna pump it out ,
shake shake shake it out , exco's gna shake it out ,

damn~ i miss them all of a sudden. those sincere faces doing that cheer always.
why do i feel close and bonded to them only towards th end of th year -.-
kay, im off to meryl's bbq . i miss halal family man. can i not go obs ?

fuck it lahhh ,

i realise how lucky some of th girls have extremely caring &lovable boyfs .
godd , screw that .
i wna go out with anyone i can randomly talk my heart out with ,
gfs ? halal family ? anyone .

gosh , i miss them .

this post will be long. k aniway , yeah . damn shag now . exco camp ? so many things to say. i'll just blog bout th events i think are so fucking memorable. handful didn't come. their lost. i can see that th juniors really bonded &i know, they wont regret coming. exco 09 spirit ? haha . was th grp leader of th group , DOMINO ! ((:

so 1st day, hmm. juniors got punished badly . god i pity them. wont elaborate. motivated them to stay fr th rest of th camp. they did. th meeting at night was soooo, debating. heh -.- ohh, &i ran to a casualty just to find him talking happily with someone else. what so bad abt that ? continue reading. aniway, at night. slept at quadrangle on a stetcher arnd 3am ? with syir, we looked up, staring at th stars. talking abt, death ? hari kiamat ? i was like tearing to sleep. it's like what syir said, notice how th sky is so close to us? or was it just our imagination? k drop th subject.

2nd day , was organised by th UG people. so i was one of th I/Cs fr a game. then fast forwaaaaard; to night time ! NIGHTWALK . i was in th patrol team. &i myself was freaked out by th ghostly sounds they made. there were 3 around th school. &all of them were loud. so everywhere you go , you'll hear a creepy sound. so i was stationed first level at th art room area. with my partner of course. i wont elaborate more, cos i bet some of th juniors will be reading this, &idk. i just dont want to let them know what exactly happened during th nightwalk. hehehe. heard people passing while reading surah al-ikhlas? HAHA. k sorry . moving on.. we had briefing at midnight. cleared misunderstandings. we did pumpings as a family &guess what. th juniors said someone faint. i ran like vroooom~ to find that person talking happily. omg, k stop complaining. my job -.-

so yea, i think th camp was a success(:

so had ncdcc today . screw them, seriously. k no , they're just so ... slack . wdv. then school open hse. waited fr ncc people to go dinner tgt. then during eating.. my one time in a month thingy came. god, it was so embarrasing. unfortunately, nad made it OBVIOUS. &th ncc guys knew, & my mood changed to extremely high mood. i was hungry , but i only ate half of my noodles cos i rly had no appetite then-.- kayy. this post is like so freaking long, i think i will like, stop here nowww. ahaha. bimbo .

you know, its irritating how a guy asks a standard question like. tgh buat ape? eat ready? LIKE DUHHHH, im smsing you fr gods' sake. just proves that that person has nth to talk to you, or he's just plain boring. plus, he's making you waste your sms. like hello, you dont even pay my bills -.- k ugh. k BYE !

shes a guy stuck in a girl's body. & really, you shd ride on this dinosaur. it definitely feels like riding on an actual one ((:

okay, im so depressed. my metal pencil box with th pink and white polka dots got run overy by a taxi &it's totally flat . plus, i bought it in japan . tried finding it in spore, but th designs are all , yuck. &now. imagine smth you rly treasure cos it took you so fucking long to find th right one, then skali kene hit and run .wah, sakeet hatiii . yaya, its just a pencil box, but its from JAPAN ! ):

okay, mak may not come fr th exco camp. mann , i won't have anyone to bully. grr. aniway , yeah , i'll be back on weds. gna have a great time theree(:

sorry bout th malay song that's playing, i got addicted to it . HAHAHAHA.

LYLY; says:
kau hilang dan terus membisu

♥ W E N J I A ♥ says:
*step (name censored)* yup . i do understand .

LYLY; says:
maafkan aku ~
♥ W E N J I A ♥ says:
ooh
aku aku i see .

LYLY; says:
HANYA PADAMU KEKASIHKU ~
BUKAKANLAH PINTU HATIMU ~

♥ W E N J I A ♥ says:
okok . i understand .
uhuh .. then ??

LYLY; says:
IZINKAN KU KEMBALI PADAMUU ~
SOB SOB.
♥ W E N J I A ♥ says:
oh .. i understand your flight .
plight *
hahahahahhaa

inside joke , HAHAHA. i guess nana and khairah would understand ((:
im asking wj how to spell censored, &she kept singing. like i talking to th wall -.- its okay wj .
k i just finished packing. im gg to msia . goodbye (:

if you ever find urself lost &all alone , get back on ur feet &think of me,
my love will get you home ,

nana told me to do this , i took only half of it, cos im lazy -.- sorry nana . haha

# Does a color of a person bothers you?
er, i dont think so . maybe, maybe not. depends ?

# Are you currently in a relationship?
- no, dont bother, dont care, fuck it, dont want, whateverr -.-

# Are you tall or short?
- tall ?

# Do you wish to be someone else?
-noooooooo, i love myselff :D muahaha. but it doesnt hurt to want to be someone else right . heh

# Can you tell if a person is in love with you ?
- nope. i bet half of them are unsure if its love or not. infatuationn you knowww ,

# Where do you want to be right now?
- in his heart, soul, &mind. awww ~

# Do you sing?
-yeah, when no one's around

# Have you ever gotten your heart broken so bad that you cried?
- HAHAHAHA. GOOD ONE . i mean like, who hasn't right ?

# Can you cook?
- simple ones. others, follow recipe?

# What was the last thing you bought?
- hmm, crispy noodle ((: yummaaaaay.

# Where do you think your love is right now?
- i think he's doing some makeover cos i rly tink he needs one .

# And what is he/she doing?
- stoning like &idiot thinking, what goes around , comes around (:

# Do you believe in ghost?
-yesss , woo.

haha, mak just bet with me too . but his is, one week aft exco camp ?
&in return, i get to ask for anythingggg ((: wahahaha.

we were behind simpang, at th lorong there today. &we saw a group of 'ah beng', around primary 5/6 . step tough mane, then sklai walk near us. they were listenting to high school musical . 'What time isit ? summertime !~' HAHAHA. on speaker loud loud lagi ! wtfuck okay. we were laughing our ass off at them. aniway, i enjoyed today though . I NEVER ! hehehe.

i have halal family &gfs &theyre th best thing god have given me , i've made a promise to nana to move on by.. th end of th year.
first step , look at ALL his ugly pictures. k eww (:

idk why its so hard for me to face reality. im so sick &tired of feeling so helpless &miserable. ugh.

aniway, sentosa outing was cancelled. went out with nana wj and khairah and rode frm ecp to bedok &back to ecp again. met eliz &joel at bedok too.
so yea .

hello, im lyly .ni mat rock, adek aku :D
we were sad ,
&my mum made my room look like a shrine . wow ((:haaaaa , im so bored. k im gna blog about today.

i met someone new. it was syir's daddy named fuzz ? yea . in my opinion, he's kind of too hyperactive fr th age of 22 , but it was nice meeting him. esp when he wanted to show us how mega bigmac looked like . &he held this hanging picture of th mega bigmac which was hung from, a ceiling &he accidentally pulled it off th hook . it was fucking funny &embarrasing. plus there were so many angmohs there. we even shared a table with this lady &he pretended to talk to me &syir about smuggling and selling drugs to children in a school. i think th lady beside us think we are total weirdos. wait no, only him. th rest of th day, i'll just say we ended th outing at th virtual land by shooting monsters. rawrr!

i didn't just type like that ... k happy reading. basically i had fun today.
gona go sentosa tmr. pray hard its not gona rain.
i wonder who planned th outing during a raining season like this -.- nvm.

i hope i have th courage to do so . c'mon lyly. what is there to worry about ?
you can do it ! woohoo ~

Haikal Lesta | One thing, two do, three words ,four you ... i love you. | says:
so? hahaha
WHACK HIM LA
birthday bashhh !!

LYLY; says:
-.- are u crazy ?
or out of ur mind ?

for th sake of doing this quiz -.- here goes-

The person who tag you is.
wenjia khairah myra

2. Your relationship with him/her is.
GIRLFRIENNDSSS <3

3.Your five impression of him/her.
wj ; friendly, caring, irritating, emo(haha!)& retarded
khairah; sweet, caring , strong, bully , ilikeherdimples :D
myra; prettyyy, v.strong, setia(: , loud, manly(: (oops sry. haha)

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
khairah; old case, she sacrificed herself .
w,k,m ; be there for me with hugs &kisses when im down (:

5.The most memorable thing he/she said to you.
alot to mention here ((:

6.If she/he became your lover, will you?
k/w/m ; rape them. revenge fr picking on me evertyime :D

7.If he/she became your lover,thing he/she has to improve on will be?
i'll love them just th way they are.

8.If he/she became your enemy, what will you do?
ignore ? hate ?

9.If he/she became your enemy,the reason will be?
cos they think im a bitch, &i think they are too? -.-

10.The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is?
outing. i fucking miss them .

11.Your overall impression of him/her is.
sisters that destiny forgot to give me ? ahaha-.-

12.How you think people around you will feel about you.
stupid girl .

13.The characters you love of yourself are.
can i be someone else ? -.-

14.On the contrary,the characteristics you hate most about yourself are.
bitch , ugly, irritating, stupid, very stupid, very very stupid &th list goes on ((:

15.The most ideal person you want to be is.
ahaha. a spirit that's flying arounddd!

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them.
er. you wont miss th water until its gone ? cherish them when they're still around((:
i sound like im gna die anytime soon -.- hah .

17.Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
(I'm just going to list out my friends, you dont have to do it okayy)

1.nana
2.syirene
3.myra
4.wenjia
5.khairah
6.hamdan
7.shah
8.meryl
9.isa
10.sister.

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
[hamdan] amandaT (:
19.Is no.9,a male or a female?
[isa] male
20.If no.7 and 10 are together,will it be a good thing?
[shah &sister ] whatthefuckk -.-
21.What is no.2 studying about?
[syir] her freaking amaths, logarithms.
22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
[myra] last ncd meeting which was last wednesday i think.
23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
[meryl] i have no idea ? i think she listens to evth.
24.Does no.1 have any siblings?
[nana] elder sister which has a baby named Adamm (: &an elder brother.
25.Will you woo no.3?
[myra]if im a guy, i think i'd be afraid of her :/
26.How about no.7?
[shah] if im a guy, i think i would as she has a similar interest as guys ?
27.Is no.4 single?
[wenjia] singlemingle :D
28.What is the surname of no.5?
[khairah] she's a malay, no surname.
29.What is the hobby of no.10?
[sister] singing, reading books -.-
30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
[khairah & isa] yes. should be.
31. Where is no.2 studying at?
[syirene] she's some sesat mat rock. i think she got kicked out of school :DD
32. Talk something casually about no. 1.
[nana] she has been a close friend with me since sec1 &has only gave her heart to one guy who fucking broke it . grr. kla no. nana's a sweet &strong girl but i think she just needs a little more self esteem at times ((:
33. Where does no.9 live at?
[isa] bedok, in this rumah sebuah. near th mrt track-.-
34. What colour does no. 4 like?
[wenjia] purple.

35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friends?
[khairah & nana] close to sisters even :D
36. Does no.1 have any pets?
[nana] nopee .
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
[shah] hahaha. idk . ask ronaldo .
38. What is no. 6 doing now?
[hamdan] i think, he kenal2-ing with SKITTLES! :D HAHA.

k finally done -.-

-i miss japan like god damn alotalotalot .

'when you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.'

shut th fuck up and let me go. this hurts i tell you so,
HAHAAHA. kay, seriously-.-

hahahahah. omg im so borededed.
had meeting in th morning. i think sec 2s okaay laaa, we're gna have a funfun time during camp yea ? ((:
then went to makan at banquet east point. started playing with ice. oh , that reminds me . we owe someone some ice in his pants, right ? muahahaha :D

you were e-vry-thing that's bad for me. make, no apologies
I'm crushed black &blue, but y'know i'd do it allll again, for youuu ~
omg. its raining. HAH-.-

i miss my gfs laaa~ haiyoo .
why am i talking like that. poof. ehh , today is th 10th of november. tmr is...? ((: hahahaha. k stop.
(((:

if anyone were to see this, pretend you didnt see anth aites ((:

specially for you , mak (: AHAHAHAH

someone once said this-
not all guys are like him. u know there are much better ones. u cannot hold back ure past lyana. you are a great girl. u deserve everything a girl deserves..

i wonder why ?
why, why her.
i miss you .
as a friend. seriously .
i feel like a nobody to you.
i dont know whats running thu my mind exactly.
i hate myself fr feeling this way . i fucking hate it .

BOWLING~
okay, today was great (: i got like 2nd in place fr each game -.- haiyoo , plus, damn paiseh at one part. i swing th ball &accidentally let it go &th ball fell behind me. &some mats were beside our group. everyone totally laughed their ass off. like shah said, i looked like a freaking bimbo ! ):






guys face kene cut off! haha!

hahah. muke tak senonoh ! :D

kay. im sorry fr th previous posts . short and kind of stupid &i didnt blog properly . so this is a proper one cos i deleted th posts,

so i had ncd meeting in th morning &crime prevention test. wooh, all done (: aniway, its so weird having mr clement as our OC -.- seriously. then had homefront security course at hta. finally get to see that haikal lesta . haha ! th course was super duper long lahh , &i was damn tired and shagg alr. then lastly , th test itself. sat beside lesta, cos i THOUGHT, he knew all the answers. padehal, he also same like me . loser, waste my time only sit beside him, eh lesta ? hahah. kidding.

went home &rushed fr ngaji a while . my dad wants to buy iphone fr me, but i want a camera ): uggh, im hungry. okay, bowling tmr with halal family:DD hehehe. k lame. halal family is basically syir shah nad aaron viv and hamdan . me too (: wait no i haram alr. haha !

k stop it, im starting to blog crap. i need sleeeeepp. heee , nights people (:

i said romeo save me i've been feeling so alone ,

radin & lyly @mt.Aso (:

i've made my decision. im clear on what i want. but do i dare ? no , i dont. im so freaking scared to hurt people's feelings. i think th same thing is repeating. omg, lyly , you're a fucking bitch. ugh.

cos all i ever wanted, it comes right down to you ,

i think i burnt like 124325425calories today by riding bicycle at ecp and to temasek primary there, &back to ecp. hehehe.

okay stop. i need to finish my crime prevention project. pfft. leceh laa ): i dont know ho to start with even. HAIYO.

im sorry, but ther's some things you dont know bout me. im not that good girl type you think i am . we're 2 different worlds apart. i guess we just have to know each other better? all i know now is that im confused &i dont know what im doing ,