chaaak ?

life's been okay . i guess . i'll blog , but not that often .
&i promise, from this day onwards , i wont let my past affect me, esp when all of it are just pure lies ?
dont you think i've changed ? i feel weird, but i feel me . hah, i dont make sense.

kay, enough . im really looking forward to prom night (: &i nvr expected my punching/slapping/pinching bag would be graduating with me too. aww .

okay, back to studying , bye !

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday,
Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently.

surpirse surprise. i've removed th archives. &change th setting so you can see only one post . cos i've made a decision to stop blogging, for th meantime. why ? i've got my reasons .you can add me at msn if you would want to contact me (: izz_lyna@hotmail.com

i believed, i hoped, i dreamt, i sacrificed.
&its time to stop doing so now cause it's been way too long.

"stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known,
I am not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
i was a dreamer before you went &let me down."

okay, just got back from msia.

kay, cca fair was great! except fr th fact that i dont think we'll recruit many sec1s. &th fact that i cocked up once during th parade. pfft, its okay lyly (: i'll let th pictures do th story telling(:
nights !












i love them all <>

this is th way that we love, like its forever.

A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell ,

hello. cca fair is tmr. there will be firesuits,firefighters (!) &fire(duh). &i diedie will carry th mistgun everywhere &ketuk anyone who makes fun of my cca. &i'll be carrying a pacestick. lovely(: wish me luck people, i really have no confidence as th contingent commander. enjoy th slow song(: goodbye !

hehe. my eyes are gone ! :o

i miss someone in particular; hmm ,

&school's a bore; part of it.
i cant stare from th 3rd storey at th 1st storey classrooms or th volleyball court anymore.
so saddening, that it's so heartbreaking ):
nvm, there's always th yearbook. aww~ it can make my day just by looking at it (:

HAHA ! okay, im serious. i miss those times.
kay, i've been a good girl in class these few days . well done lyly .
*pats my own head*
woo~ there's only geography &D&T tmr. th rest are free periodsss, assembly &cme blablabla.
hehehe. &traiiningggg fr cca fair! (: i wish i could hug every single one of my cadet at one go .
i love them, hehehe. bye (:

tak pernah ku coba melupakanmuu,
sungguh tak bisaaaa, ku mengganti dirmu dengan dirinya ,
sungguh tak sanggup aku berpaling dari muu .
sungguh tak bisaaa, ku mencintainya untuk melupakanmuu .

LALALALA! MY HAIR SUCKS LA. MANN , I REGRET CUTTING MY FRINGE!
MCM MANGKUK !
k no. exaggerating. oh nooo, & there's school tmr. oh shit! D:

girlfriends. im sorry fr not spending time with you guys. not even bothering to , or wdv.
but it takes 2 hands to clap. i did my part. you know me, hot tempered. yeah , i hate waiting very long, alone. &if you guys want to go with your cliques, then so be it. i dont want any fights or people to think im unfair or wdv shit. she get her stuff settled &evth will be fine. till then, i have to act &think RATIONALLY unlike some people .
love you all <3
(do i make sense here? -.- we need to talk, pronto )

do you think i look like a small kid ? i dont think so (:

i realise my posts are super freaking long . i'll make this short .

mum's being an ass. she wants me to study until i die.
therefore, i cant go today's ndp bbq/gathering. ugh.
yesterday's training went well, good start fr this new year(altho attendance wasnt that good)
danial actually had th guts to say 'im back!' when he came in th ncd room. i swear i could have smacked his face.

LYLY; says:
then th ncc guy, (name censored)
kpo again
then he train th leftovers.
(-efortunc-) says:
basket....
(-efortunc-) says:
i never liked him you know
LYLY; says:
haha u think i do ?

fuck you matrep. i regret knowing/dating you last time . i hope you die and go to hell.
let me get this straight. im still a virgin and forever will until i get married. there, done.

&mum , just shut up . UG now is diff from th past. im th chairman &what, u expect we to lepas tangan like that just cos you dont wna lose face? just cos you're scared i'll fail &all those shit. you just dont wna bear th embarassment right ? just shut up, cos i will prove you wrong. i'll study hard, train hard, & play hard. just wait &see. it's standard that cca steps down only during june fr those taking Os. so dont be stupid to ask me to step down now. thanks . im not th same as abang, so stop treating me like him. thank my cca for what i am now. without my cca, i bet you'll have another version of my brother. so think properly ah ibu, stop being so selfish.

let's watch as you crash &burn, fucker.

hey ho. kay blablabla . im gona blog bout this year, like what other people did . same old thing. so ya.

so 2008 was unexpectedly a fruitful and fun year . i rmbr last december 2007, i wasnt looking forward to 2008. spent th last moments of 2007 with isa. haha, yeah. we're currently just bestfriends.
so, was holding to th past and shit. but as 2008 passed, i learned how to look forward to th future, make th best out of th present , &slowly let go of th past. i didnt say i did let go, but yeah. time healed evth.
tho it would have been faster if that someone didnt come in &out of my life quite often. hah, kay, last line tak perlu -.-

in terms of cca, took over fawwaz's as th chairman of my unit. passed th UDI course, &went thru th SNCO course alone; god, i nvr want to go thru that again;
&highlight of my life as a ncdcc cadet; NDP '08. no doubt it was full of experience and thought me how to endure, prioritise my time better, socialise more &many more. th best part is we created friendship with other schools and not forgetting th sirs. i rmbr bedok south being close to th sirs like sir fairuz, sir hadi , sir fadio &many more. they even bought us famous amos secretly . haha! that was suppose to be a secret but wdv. then i rmbr ms foong buying ALL of us starbucks to share. imagine how much she spent :0
&not forgetting, she cried in th bus aft one of th trainings, &th whole bus was like totally quiet.

friends, i guess i have a th best people around me:D
gfs like nana wenjia khairah meryl bedah. been thru bad &good times tgt. thousand apologies to 2 of my gfs when i had my case thing. so, lost some & gained some friends in 2008. some which i almost lost but managed to mend all that's broken before its too late. i thank god fr that.
oh, not forgetting halals ! we just got close ater th japan trip . namely hamdan shah aaron nad syir viv. didnt know i would be myself with them cos i was being stupid with exco early this year due to my case &cos everyone taught i was mixing with bad company &i was a bad girl . &i didnt deserve to be a leader. hah ! in your face, assholes(: i would love to say that to abraham's face if i could.

&&love life ? well, what can i say. being single is definitely th best. do wdv you want, mix with whoever you want. you're free to do anth . but yeah, i should really stop changing my mind bout that, i shd rly be sure of who i want, cos i know i have broken many hearts. &im so so sorry. didnt mean to. but ya, i promise myself to change fr th better. friends last forever right ? relationships never did last at this point of life. i never was a good gf aniway (: so whaaateverrrr, miss independent ahh :D

so yeah , i've been thru shit at times but that's life right ? i guess im rly looking forward to 2009. Os coming . i hope it will be better than this year. came a long way in 2008; &i rly hope to change fr th better in 2009. one thing to look forward to-WO promiotion(: woo~ go lyly !

kay. i'll end this post by saying some stuff based on my experience. you cant always stick to your close/true friends. you have to extend your social life. you cant halang your close friends from having other close friends. they have their own life to lead too. take me fr example. i had a hard time with exco earlier this year. i felt totally left out cos my gfs and exco are two different worlds apart. bt i managed to balance both parties &my gfs even understand me when i say i have outing with exco or wdv. so yeahh. that's all . happy new year people (: