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2009-06-27T00:47:00.003+08:00

"it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong..
here's to evth that comes down to nothing"

i cant sleep &decided to blog bout my feelings cos i kinda feel shitty right now .

i think im a pretty messed up girl.
why th fuck am i so complicated.

im sorry , i really feel so pathetic right now. i always let my anger get th best of me. but i somehow managed to control my feelings this time. y'know just cool down, cry a river, &just reflect. but moments ago, evth just proved to be unnecessary. i feel like youre pushing me away. yeah i was kind of harsh in my previous posts. i felt like i was being toyed, really. when you were here, its like u talked to me so often.. i even remembered you msging me bout how you felt when you couldnt sleep one night even tho i was sleeping. then now, overseas &your internet all. i guess u went there too sudden &it was hard for me to adapt to changes. that made me make stupid assumptions.

i really feel so guilty for th situation right now. im sorry.

whats my damn problem ?
i really dont know..

2009-06-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

ya i understand. like totally.
just.. enjoy your time there.

seems like im never gona get this to you altho i dropped like super enormous hints.

whatever;

anyway, thanks isa for accompanying me today(:
i had my stiches on my gums removed &finally got to eat beef! &also, thanks isa for getting me a cheap deal for my adaptor(:
owe you one.

2009-06-24T16:08:00.004+08:00

just find me when you're bored. im really tired of this.

you dont even care bout my welfare when im sick. why do i even bother.

terase ? then better knock urself hard on th head now,

&tell yourself that youre really one stupid jerk &try to change th situation now.

dont bother asking me if im referring to you, cos i wont admit.

headache. bye.

2009-06-23T13:14:00.002+08:00

how are you? hope you're doing fine. sigh:'(

ytd was tiring, its like i was exercising th whole day when it was just a simple outing with gfs. this surgeory thing is really irritating th shit out of me . i dont want to eat today=no mood to study at all. not that im not thankful for th trouble my mum went thru cooking porridge just for me. but im just so fucking sick of eating liquid food &right now. i feel so.. drained. you know like sayur layu like that. ugh !

&worst, i feel like everyone around me is so distant. y'know, i can rly cry a river right now.

2009-06-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

HI. my cheeks are still at its swelling state but oh well. i miss my gfs &im really stressed out cos i cant eat whatever i want &i've been revising alot just to kill time &i cant play my sims3 yet.

so im off to sentosa with th girls tmr(: hehe ((:

2009-06-20T16:26:00.002+08:00

hi. aftereffects of surgeory ): look at th cheeks! )):

1st day, starts swelling.

2nd day, twice th size. looks like im keeping 2 fishball inside my cheeks-.-

okay, really ugly but i just thought i shd show you people so in case you guys have a wisdom tooth growing, u may need to extract it out, like me . hahaha.

2009-06-18T21:17:00.002+08:00

im getting really paranoid bout th surgeory tmr , really .

just read details bout th surgeory &it's after effects.

swelling; it'll reach its max size in 3 days..
cant open my jaw fully.
HAVE to brush me teeth with th stitches &wound for 1 week.
discolouration (blue black)of th skin over th jaw.
&there's 4 tooth to be extracted thats still forming inside my gums.

there's more facts. omfg, im really afraid of going thru th pain..

2009-06-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

i have to do this. i have to think of my feelings for now instead of others.

yesterday;
went to accompany Dzu &haikal to th electronics shop. walked around but couldn't find what Dzu wanted. &my blisters got worse.
then Dzu decided to blanje th 3 of us a movie (: wanted to watch drag me to hell, but haikal caught it already.
so we caught ghosts of girlfriends past, my idea of course :D thanks Dzu !

today, more of a revision day. time to catch up with daily revisions.
guess what? my current lappy 's adaptor wire thing is damaged. wires can be seen sticking out. &so, i cant charge my lappy. sigh, just hope parents are holding on to their promise.
im thinking of Acer, it's thin &sleeq &worth th kaching((:

ok im damn bored, sims oh sims. sigh .

2009-06-15T21:44:00.007+08:00

Troubles are just temporary, for now.
just put your mind &soul in Os people.

d&t is a must to get a distinction. endure endure!
it isnt rude to fight for your rights. it isn't defiant to come to lessons on th actual timing when being asked to come earlier. one more thing, so what if im a fucking leader? oops, was. i stepped down remember ? ya ya, a leader, always a leader. i dont take that shit anymore since my Os are much more important, since i DO have a life rather than doing d&t th whole day. sorry, but i dont think that im in th wrong.

Any recomendations on laptops, poople? eliz say VAIO no good):
i need to make a decision before thursday):
cos friday's my teeth surgeory *freaks out*

2009-06-14T21:37:00.004+08:00

you're gona be mine soon babyy (:

so, went funan again tho i upgraded th RAM to 2GB ytd. but my laptop couldn't take th graphics or what shit tho th running of th game was smooth, cos my laptop zaman kuno ah, grr.
im so kental laaa. when i discovered my RAM wasnt enough, i cried. &today, when th salesguy said my lappy didnt have a graphic card &CANNOT be installed inside, i saw my life falling apart. like,- kepiang! &i was gona cry, but duh. i didnt, well, not in th public.

hahahahaha, sims oh sims. when can i get to play you without any distubance. haii.
yeah , call me a no-lifer. but hey, its better than to have your heart broken by a guy or pick up bad habits. right right but still, lucky i have good time management (:

OH! of course my parents saw my pathetic face, &they offered...
to buy me a new lappy ! :D
soon! cos they they think im stressed out due to studies &cos i couldnt play my sims to relax my mind-.- they're scared i'd commit suicide. HAHA. i may okay!

heheheh, i lovelove my parents<3 i owe them alot alot. lucky i've been doing my revision.
ok now , STUDY !

patience is a virtue (:

2009-06-13T17:11:00.003+08:00

look at my facebook, th survey made me jump for joy mann (:
&my parents are bringing me to upgrade my lappy like now. hopefully i can do evth by today.
yeah, i would do anything to play my sims3. my boyf fr now.
patience is really a virtue(:

(guardpost guy hehe) says:
Sims is your everythin edi..
lucky you tkde BF

if not sure your bf tinggalkan you haha

I say:

.....
ya lucky i no boyf.
i got boyf also, i dump my boyf for my sims .

HAHAHAHA

kidding kidding .

million smiles! :DDDDD

gay brother.

2009-06-13T16:46:00.003+08:00

"YOU'RE SO GAY, & YOU DON'T EVEN LIKE BOYS"

right now, i really feel so kental + frustrated at th same time(:

linking to th previous post, im boiling right now.i've been staying at home doing ALOT of revision, fucking stressed out. a good time to play sims 3 but ...
i couldn't. lazy to rant, just guess why i couldn't. fucker.

i really think those fuckers who upload sims3 online &allow people to download it for free should just fucking die.
do you guys know how difficult it is to create such an amazing game ? a game that can make you stick to th computer screen 24/7 without you realising th time.
&how unfair it is for people like ME, who starved just to fucking buy th game !

gosh, to those people who thinks of downloading th game illegally, just fuck off & dont let me know. i'd probably start cursing you up down left right ! ugh.

2009-06-12T17:42:00.003+08:00

HOW I WISH I COULD JUST KILL A BOY (NOT YET A MAN)!

whats MY defination of a gentleman ?
-Always gives in to girls even tho they'll be at loss.
-DOES NOT THREATEN TO BEAT GIRLS(or worse, really hitting them)
-there are more, but im lazy to type cos i need to vent my anger now.

today, this stupid asshole who i thought was cute, took my chair in d&t. &i didnt confront him cos i was too tired doing my artefact. so close one eye. i STOOD FOR TH REST OF TH LESSON DOING MY ARTEFACT. &THEN RIGHT, when it's time to go home, we had to return th chairs, &he had th fucking guts to ask me to keep th chair cos he claim its MINE, when he fucking stole it away from me for HIM TO SEAT. stupid dickhead, face cute but attitude like fuck. TURN-OFF SIA!

&guess what, when i returned home, my abang was playing my sims3. without my permission! his lappy, but MY sims3 CD. like what i mentioned in ytd's post, he didnt allow me to play. &my straightener got thrown away by mum because of HIM. so net if he keep stealing my sims to play, my sims3 CD kena thrown?! where's th justice man?!

guy friends, brother.. dont get me started on this love thingy.

GUYS, WAKE UP LA PLEASE. UR MENTALITY THAT SLOW AH?!

random ranting

2009-06-11T21:39:00.007+08:00

cb ah, i want to play my sims3 but my abang dont allow me use his laptop. i want upgrade my stupid lappy lah. so old, ketinggalan zaman nye laptop da lah takde msn. da lah lag. da lah RAM so little. omfg la, i feel like throwing you away u ugly thing. hahahahaha ok no. been doing d&t for long hours this whole week. damn shag. my hands becoming like guys one, hahaha. lessons starts from morning. suck or what. i have eyebags. cos i can only use when abang's done using his lappy, which is like 11pm. wth right, have abang like this. im short of cash, i need $ badly. i miss you la actually.hahahahhaa. whatever la idiot. i still have smth against you. i have a black heart made of acrylic. suits you dude(:

cant wait for sentosa. cant wait for sec1 ncdcc camp.

2009-06-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

"when you take, you take th very best of me."

-last year .

so fat right ?
im fatter now. so damn fat.
FAT Ly.
fatty bom BOM GEDEBOM!!!

chips+mash potato+popeye's bread+macs now.
how can i not be fat-.-

i learned how to play mahjong recently !! :D

last minute getaway to msia:D

2009-06-07T22:47:00.010+08:00

"You never did give a damn thing, honey.
But I cried, cried for you."

ok a quick one. cos i only had 3 hours of sleep at th hotel, oh did i mention. i played sims 3 th whole time i was there. nah enjoy th snapshots :D

okay dah stop ly. dont worry ppl, im not a hardcore gamer. of course i went out too . nah enjoy :D

others on facebook. i lazy upload all here. BAAAAAAAAAAAAIIII ! :)

aaron's 16th chalet

2009-06-06T13:33:00.003+08:00

"yeah yeah I knowww, I know it's kinda late.

But Happy Birthday ((:"

16 already , stop being mean to me. thanks to ur genes im hodoh okay!
hahaha, no la, you have my fullest respect as a friend &like you always say,
always keep smiling!
sorry i left without a notice yesterday. was rushing & you were having fun.
didnt wana spoil th mood(:
________

okay im done with th birthday post. im going to johor soon. i haven't even pack my bag yet. &yes i'll be spending one night there.
my chance to bring my bro's lappy &play th sims 3 there. hehehe.

one thought of you is all it takes to leave th rest of th world behind..

only god knows eh .

2009-06-04T21:16:00.004+08:00

i fucking hate being accused, i swore to god , i didnt steal her money.
what else you want ?
i saved my own fucking money that u gave, which is JUST RIGHT for my lunch everyday,
just to do my hair and buy my sims3 & i told u earlier on i will do it with my friends.
now ure saying u forgot ?
ure fucking unreasonable . theres no reason for me to not be angry with you .
fuckshit, i cant stand this, i cant stand you .

finally, after th long wait ..

2009-06-04T17:06:00.009+08:00

YESSSSS I BOUGHT IT!! :DDD

BUT GUESS WHAT, MY LAPPY DOESNT SUPPORT SOME SYSTEM REQUIREMENTS!
CAN PLAY, BUT LAG AND SLOW! )):
my bro's lappy meets ALL th system requirements, but takkan want to disturb his lappy.. haaii.

GRRR , I NEED TO CHANGE MY WINDOWS TO VISTA ONE, SOON
money ?? )":
______________________

anyway, me &fawwaz had a fruitful talk about our future career.

we somehow want th same thing, &i know that being a designer is a hard job, wont have a big salary.
so.. im going to go design poly. but if i can make it into jc, i will only want to go to temasek jc. so if cannot make it to temasek jc, i'll go to poly (:
then try my best and make it into university. graduate, &go into civil defence as a paramedic (:
with a degree, i can secure at th least, a lieutenant position, if im not wrong. with a starting pay of like 5k ?
fucking cool or what.

better than being a designer, u have to be one of th famous ones to earn a good pay of only like 2-3k per month. no matter how hard u work.

okay, then become paramedic ready , i want to live in a condominium.
get a blue sexy sports car.
marry a hot + must be rich guy, but not a workaholic.
&live happily ever after(: screw that. hahahaha.
then i must have a baby boy first&then a baby girl(insyaallah). then th abang can take care of th smaller adek(: cute right?!

imagine th good life...

how i wish my life would go as planned. HAHAHAH.

dont forget

2009-06-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

 "Did you regret ever standing by my side?
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned"

whatever ibu, i dont do what u say , so what? BH is not th only way to improve my malay. it sucks. even my cikgu says so. i never liked reading BH. berita merepek & i dont even like th smell of newspaper in th first place. i know how to study, i know what to do. i dont like people telling me to do something i dont think is right. you dont like me being interested in th design courses? too bad, i wont do smth i dont enjoy or not having interest in. e.g. JC. i may go there, but dont force me to . cos i just fucking hate being told to make a specific decision. dont allow me to retake malay Os? then why abang gets to do so ? he still got a b3 after retaking it okay. yeah whatever, i guess all i can do is pray &hope for th best for today's malay Os. even my tutor gives me positive remarks despite my grades! dont have faith in me sudah laaaaaa!

enough of ranting. sims3 is in stores tmr, i think?
or is it just th launching date at bugis.. school tmr is even until 5 !
what th fuuccck laaaaaa, hai. i'll wait for thursday or smth, i guess ):

turning into dust ,

2009-05-29T21:52:00.008+08:00

CD love love (:

beach cleaning with ncc, np today. funfun!!
& unit's bbq<3333i've got lots&lots of baby hair, haha!

CUTE RIGHT?! he like got benjol. haha!

we, da bomba girls (:

sec2s- we were treated like queens today(: aww.

stupid la sold, bias shit. nvm prove her wrong.
Malay Os, mustmust get A1 !

2009-05-28T16:39:00.003+08:00

i want their mash potato now .

beach cleaning tmr):
&unit's BBQ! :D

i think i failed 2 for mid years, hahaha. but there's an improvement although i fail ok! :D
&june holidays damn packed, everyday school.
oh did i mention, im going to go for surgeory for my teeth. 4 teeth needs to be extracted, not th old ones. th ones still growing inside. cos my mouth is too small. haha!

i dont really like guys like you.
im not someone you go to just cos you're bored, okay? (:

2009-05-24T14:49:00.003+08:00

EP DAY,
3 CONSECUTIVE YEARS OF PARTICIPATING, OK BAGUS ! :D

came late due to madrasah,
missed changi firemen , cos they went back to their station early.
*inserts lots of sad face*

2009-05-22T22:00:00.006+08:00

finally , officially not in th cca anymore! yaaaay! *throws beret*

okay tak senonoh, shut up .

so as expected, th ceremony wasn't up to standard. shd have at least let th sec4s plan instead of th 3s kan -.- since its OUR parade.
plus, we had to make way for th netballers to use th netball court cos they cant stand th sun? ok i didnt know that, so we had to use th quadrangle before their training starts, &that is when th sun was shining so damn fucking brightly. face was black+red for 1hour or so after parade, phew.
dah whatever, next year , let CLTs organise.

but hockmeng gave us a card &choc each(: &also th WHOLE unit lollipops each. sweet kan ! &th sncos& ncos gave us some dedication thing in a cd form! in th presentation , they said they were proud to be our cadets & even apologised for whatever sins they've done to us. hahaha cute kan!!
but so sadd laaaaaaaaaahhhhhh )':

touchy touchy, hahaha.

perverts behind.

ok so aft training, went to eat with ug people &shah , &they bought for me this 1-litre bandung that i could hardly finish . ended up wanting to pee so badly in th bus &now my stomach is like damn bloated. hahaha

good night people, love today (:

2009-05-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

if our friendship meant alot to you, you wouldn't have done that if you knew it will make me unhappy.
you dont understand a girl's mind, cos i know exactly what she's thinking cos i ever knew her.
dont say you know a guyfriend of mine, when u were never close friends with him.
ur attempt to make me jealous failed, but dont be sad, at least it made me hate you for what you did.
i know she'll be happy to see this (:

2009-05-21T18:42:00.003+08:00

I DONT WANT TO STEP DOWN.
I DONT WANT YOU TO SCREW UP OUR CEREMONY TMR, EGO BESAR.

fuck la )))))))))))):
*inserts more sad face*

th bengkel melayu for today and ytd was really effective &th instructor is really humourous. yaaay .
i need to do better for malay. i will. A1 baybehh!

nana turned 16 !

2009-05-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

i gave out th light &picture outcome was bright (:
*angel *

hiiii peeeepuuuull !
went to buy customized brownies for nana &her early celebration, cos there's malay course tmr ):

okay moving on , accompanied wj buy flour &stuff, & we gathered. cam-whored , &then , chaos.
th evil plan of throwing flour at th birthday girl, unfortunately, was also for me (just when i thought i was safe from flour as my birthday passed). th most stupid-iest thing is, i told wj to buy 2 packets instead of 1, &i helped open th flour.

flour is a must during birthdays, &i think its gna be our group's tradition -.-
so blabla , nana and me became th ghost. mcm lion , rawr.

for th 20th of may;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBU!
(no matter how irritating&violent u are, i still love u okay! )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA !
(may our friendship last longlong ok , lovelove uuu!)

2009-05-19T17:59:00.003+08:00

DO YOU KNOW WHY I DELETED FRIENDSTER ?
DO YOU KNOW WHY I DELETED &BLOCK CONTACTS FROM MSN ?

DO YOU ? DO YOU?!

&YOU! OMFG , FCKING - UGH .
SMUE LAKI NAK EH, GATAL.

SOMETIMES LOOOVEEEE COMES AROUND, AND THEY KNOCK YOU DOWN.
JUST GET BACK UP WHEN THEY KNOCK YOU DOWN !

SMILE LYLY,
EVENTHO U BANG-ED UR NOSE ON TH TABLE :D

fun-filled june (:

2009-05-18T14:44:00.005+08:00

"he had th most amazing smile... "

science paper 1 left, till MYE is finally over.
big deal, we still have Os(!!)

ncdcc step down is this friday!! yes, i just said this friday ))):
&firemen is gna come down & no footdrill people, so better come &make ur warrants happy for th very last time!
just hope th sec3s came up with a smooth plan for th ceremony.
oh but still , mr clement allowed us to come to th sec1 camp in june! me &myra will have complete freedom &only help in th camp when th sec3s need help. cool kannnn (((:

-15 more days to th sims 3 :D

freedom baaybehh!

2009-05-16T11:03:00.009+08:00

now's a good time to panic .

my brother threw away our d&t textbook cos he forgot i need it.
ok, just hope my journal is enough to pull my grade to an A .

ohhh! my family's gna go to cameron highlands ! :D
during my malay Os. damn:( but its okay.
no, im not gna go out late or wdv, im gna use my time wisely , by buying th sims3 as soon as it's being displayed on th racks.
&sit at home &play all day long :DD

y'know, 2 june is like taking forever to come.
by th time it comes, my savings gone already. hais.

sweet sixteen (:

2009-05-14T16:31:00.012+08:00

one in a million of those complete pictures of us :D
(excluding khairah)

first & foremost,

happy birthday to me ! (:

secondly,

happy 16th birthday to syed (peihwa sec) !
& 17th, to ilyas bin muhammad ! (where have you been ?!)

so cool to have people you know who has th same birthday(:

okay, didnt expect to have a celebration or whatsoever due to exams and such. however, gfs suprised me with a cake (its th thought that counts) &isa treated me to a movie and haagen daz's choc fondue! heaaavenly okay~ but still, today doesnt feel that special at all, exam period dampens th mood ): but still, big thanks to all of you, sorry for disturbing ur revision time ppl): love you guys long time okay!

&to those who wished me at th struck of midnight (or even earlier or many times) thank youuuuuu ! lots &lotsa loooooveee <3

_____
IDIOT, YOU STUPID OR DUMB?! NO MANNERS.
HMPH, HAHAHA.

sims 3 !!

2009-05-11T14:56:00.005+08:00

shake shake, shake shake, shake it (:

days left to sims3, 22 days. so far i've saved... $4. $50 more to goo !
fuck you ly, you can nvr save. hahaha, until next year pun wont save seh ):

this year is full of shit. birthday on exams. hari raya during prelims. totally dread this year.
so much for sweet sixteen.
nvm, a chance to show those suckers i can score &have th best of both worlds ! :D

changi airport-nightclass

2009-05-10T11:48:00.007+08:00

hoping you'd remember that special day, much misses..

always smile 24/7 whenever someone around you is camwhoring,

or people like eliz will be able to have ugly, candid snapshots of you (:

hahaha , okay i have to go. i marrying under my block today &everyone's waiting fr my arrival. gotta rush !!

stay happy people. smile even if you dont feel like it :D

2009-05-09T12:46:00.002+08:00

i saved this post as drafts, &i didnt know when to post it . i thought it'd be best to do it now ?

pillows, chocolate, melted ice-cream, belt, laughters shared, ice down th pants for each vulgarity used, similar phones. promises to just keep in touch &not become strangers in th future. im gna miss these.

what happened? im not sure myself. each and every one of us have our different ways, different cliques &now, there isnt anything to link us all. amazing how a student leader commity can bring us together to form a beautiful friendship like this. but i miss it now, since all of us too busy with our own lives. sharing only a smile everytime we pass each other(even tho i still play restauraunt city with aaron online, haha!) each time i open my desktop, i see th 4 of you . as much as i dont seem affected by th distance of us all, i am. so very affected, but no use fretting over what u cant have again right? or can i ?

i miss you guys,
shah&aaron&hamdan
):

2009-05-08T23:59:00.005+08:00

i feel like shit. i feel like breaking down.
&th best part is, i have no fucking idea why.

whats this rubbish in front of me , wtfuck am i studying for. im fucking sick of everything &i have cold sweat now when th fan is on. stress? maybe. im suddenly irritated by whoever's msging me right now(sorry if i didnt reply). im sick of you being irritating &wasting my time entertaining ur nonsense when i really dont wanna argue. im sick of studying when half of th stuff im studying for isnt of any use in my future.im sick of denying what i really feel just because i hate th fact that i feel that way, like wtfuck am i thinking?! & idk why youre going out often , when theres a camp this june, what if u cant go ? hais. suddenly whats right in front of me seems to be meaningless. gosh, am i sensetive or what these days. i think im just tired. back to revision, idiot.

tied together with a smile , but you're coming undone..

2009-05-05T18:01:00.004+08:00

" truth be told, i miss you
truth be told, IM LYING (: "

hah okay random pic. ohmygod, i miss those times me nana wj &khairah cycle from ecp to random places ): soon okay y'all ?

okay, so far eng was alright. malay ? gosh, didn't expect it to have quite a high standard . ish , sold >:(
&i decided not to buy th pre-order of th sims3. cos im lazy to go to bugis to get it. huahua ,

today, me &th girls went to watch 17 again. yeahyeah, zac efron hothotHOT! :D
ohh, he taught us a lesson(:
dont have sex until you get married. save it for th one you really love. thats why sex is also called 'making love' :D

so girls, wait until adult then have boyf better. higher chance it'll last :D then can go make baby all skali, hahaha!

ok go study !

2009-05-03T13:27:00.004+08:00

I WANT.

to stress out after atudying everytime(:
my sims 2 disc cant be reinstalled *sobs*
but launching date is only like, 2 june? &its a freaking 75bucks):
i think i want to get th pre-order. ok, SAVE first !

word of advice, for me, gfs &everyone!:
before insulting others, reflect on yourself first. anda paham? bagus :D

2009-05-02T11:07:00.004+08:00

"MISSES "

amazing how people think theyre something amazing when they're not , laugh.out.loud , *pukes*

yay yay mid years are nearing. c'mon ly, you can do it , whoo~
huahua , must have self confidence, but dont too much like some people ! :D

i just baked cookies ! hehehe, k go study while earning money in my very own restauraunt, ly's delicacy :D
ok dah, merepek. bye.

2009-04-30T18:20:00.014+08:00

" sometimes i trip & fall, but i know where i stand. "

hi , this room/hotel is filled with so much memories);

lovers to friends, friends to strangers. isnt that so fcking cool (: (sense th sarcasm? hah)
why oh why.
why do feelings change, why do ppl change. why does this feeling come &visit all of a sudden.
please, clear ur thoughts ly, dont turn back....

my heart feels so numb. like there's a missing piece of puzzle in ur life.
living in denial? hah, its funny how u think u rly know urself.

i realise these days , i feel really weird. i tend to get disappointed over myself if i think i've hurt someone in a way by what i say. i dont know, this is really weird. well, everyone has their faults right ? no one is falwless. we should accept others for their imperfections(: esp among my girlfriends. idk what im saying, but i think i got my point across. but ah, if that someone goes over th limit, that one different story ah. hah.

y'know, i rly dont know what im trying to say in this post.

DAHDAH GO STUDY PEOPLE,
NO TIME SADSAD &ANGRYANGRY,
KEEP SMILING !!! :DD
__________

2009-04-28T16:39:00.008+08:00

"you're th one to built me up &tear me down,"

stepping down on th 22nd of may :(
omg la, i rly dont want to cos i think i haven't done enough.
hai, ok, trust th new sncos(: i'll be coming back anyways, for sure.

OH! before that, im still not satisfied with some issues, yes, i have LOADS of issues.
revenge is definitely sweet right? but its sinful):
ok, one last time, a good one(: just for my beloved unit, hehehe.
well, sometimes u just have to so ppl wont STEP OVER UR HEAD!

2009-04-25T15:44:00.006+08:00

" didn't mummy told you not to play with fire ? (:"

as expected, trip to firestation was god damn exciting :DD
(pics at my facebook)

oh, like myra said, no matter how much we complain about our cadets/training, how cekik darah they are, they're still our cadets &no one can disturb us. KORANG PAHAM?!
it's like literally playing with fire y'know(: &you're no match for it :D Muahahaha.

one more thing, doesn't mean im a leader, i cant break th rules. rules are meant to be broken, &sometimes. rules have to be broken so you can have your rights. but of course, i know my limit, &i bet you guys do too(:

kiss ma arse, losers :D

2009-04-23T17:26:00.010+08:00

"life is a maze, &love is a riddle. "

MYRAA~FIRESTATION TMR!
*winks*

hehe, okay shd i go to th ncdcc day parade to represent my fcking dumb school or not ?
it'll be awkward cos its been long since i went to cd activities, hais. what more, th hq told us at th very last minute AND th training is fr 5 consecutive days after mid years! &idk if there's points or wdv, but i dont caaaaaare, i just want th experience!
Os is one thing, &imagine how dark i'll be! (im so not gona sacrifice my face again fr a fucking parade)

but th thing is, we get to go in th flag barrier contingent at th very last moment, cos they need more WOs. &what more, we get to wear no.1 &it would be a huge & last event as a cadet! aaaaaah, dilemma!!

(Someone) says:
*come on, be part of history. the first ever ncdcc parade
*and you'll be wearing no.1
*carrying your unit flag

unit flag? hmm. a good chance to burn it.
HAHAHAH! K, KIDDING.
_________

you can hate me all you want, by all means. idk how many times i've said this. but i'll say it again. you dont know how difficult it is okay. all these change. i fucking hate bottling things up when im not good at it. yeah, maybe i was living in denial but now i know what i want. i just fucking want to concentrate on Os okay. u wana say thats just bullshit , up to u . u can tell ur lovely brothers evth i do , cos i know surely they look at me as someone who doesnt appreciate u fr what uve done, someone who treats u like fucking shit. well wdv. they're th last bunch of people i would ever listen to, &that includes you. you dont want to study or buck up, its none of my business anymore. its just you? well , ppl change, so can you if you try. but ure not even trying to why shd i even care when i've got my life to worry about. i cant giv a fucking shit bout this relationship thing, yes i did have feelings fr you. dont u think all these is just infatuation? all these are just bullshit? dont you think if were tgt, we wont even last till god knows when? relationships are just temporary, why bother bout it when we can have fun all we want at this age. u can always find ur partner in th future when ure more matured right. i bet in few years time, you'll just forget bout me . its always like that. so buddy, listen up good. maybe its th past that made me this way. but thank god. it rly made me look at a brighter side of life. a life without regrets. i love th way things are now. although in ur eyes, were far apart. all i can say is, its just what you think. cos mid years are close , &i rly dont wana screw it up.sometimes u just have to sacrifice smth in ur life for ur future y'know. lies? hah, its getting anoying each time we fight(idk why we even have to).
its not me, its you.

2009-04-21T17:38:00.002+08:00

"better things i look forward to in life"

OK THIS IS DAMN NICE. ITS BROWNIES WITH TOPPINGS.
&TH BROWNIES ARE HEAVENLY !

thinking of buying a whole set fr gfs? when i have th kaching(:
puas makan:D (mind you, i ate only 1-.-) hahaha.

2009-04-17T21:25:00.005+08:00

" lets have some fun this beat is sick. "

SYMBOL OF LOVE FROM- BEDOK SOUTH?!
KISS MY ASS.
HAHAHAHA! bias school ehhh.

speechday; everyone was great. yeah, my post will be a couple of sentences these few days again. wooOoOoooO~

2009-04-16T16:29:00.008+08:00

ALL HAIL TH NOTICEBOARD.
"yes maam! 1 noticeboard.. 2 noticeboard..30 noticeboard.."
will be expecting alot of that in th upcoming trainings! HAHAHAHA,

i've got a toothache &i've been screaming in pain since just now.
god's punishment for me cos i didn't listen to my mum. fell asleep ytd &she woke me up &forced me to brush my teeth before sleeping-.- of course, i was dead tired &continued sleeping like a pig although she tried to steal my pillow. k, sorry mum D:

last ever parade for sec4s tmr before we step down! all th best to everyone :D

this is th clock upon th wall, this is a story of us all . pictures of you , pictures of me, remind us all of what we used to be , confess to me, every stolen promise you believe. confess to meee, all th lies between us, all th lies between you and meeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!

yeah , whatever , i'll just change th photos in th frame. HAH.

midyears=stress. our relieving of stress session((:

2009-04-14T15:55:00.004+08:00

"these memories are playing like a film without sound."


one question , will th memory of us fade as soon as i leave this school? 
when we talked all night about the rest of our lives, 18/10/08 (:

2009-04-12T14:09:00.006+08:00

" &it makes me smile,"

EXCO(:

my brother's helping me drill my shelf. &im sitting here with earplugs stuffed into my ears. BISING. i almost got deaf trying to drill th wall myself at first ! butbut, i put up my mirror myself(: aww im so proud of myself. ahaha.

class phototaking tmr! :DD anyway , its amazing how th cream my parents bought fr me can vanish my panau(s) in one day. but then again, it'll appear after my training everytime.
oh well. at least it can disappear :D

a few stuff to say before i go:
1)'you' can do whatever you like friend. if ignoring this matter will prove to everyone that i've moved on, i will :D
2)say wdv you want. i know & 'you' know who's at th losing end :D

&& not to forget, i wana say sorry to th prettyboy down there, &also a thanks fr always being there fr me(&he's just a very close friend &this is just random)

okay need to help, BYE!

2009-04-09T18:53:00.009+08:00

"boy i can be evth that you need,"

HAPPY NCDCC DAY TO NCDCC CADETS! (laugh out loud)

i just made a fool out of myself today . haha. as much as i didnt want to go up th stage, i had to. where to put my face! hahah, okay wdv. yang sudah tu sudah(:

2 rows right behind me &myra. those two damn cute kann:D

k then 2.4 today was a huge disappointment. damnit, i shdn't have eaten&drank right before th run. didnt have stitches since idk when &suddenly it came back today. bodohh kannnn. k nvm.

at least there's th parade rehearsel, well smth that im happy and contented with. though many had classes to attend or better, cabut. how i wish my cadets are like other ugs. how i wish there isn't any gangster wannabes in my unit. haaaai~
thenthen, as usual , took th lift with th usuals to our room. &i think th lift has some magic cos it nvr fails to make us high after training(haha, dah bebual merepek).
then from th top, we saw th ncc still marching eventho it was raining &we're like wow. summore semangat cheer! BOOYAH, HOOHAH!! hahaha. &We got high cos they're somehow like doing a rain dance! hahaha, okay , no offence ncc, really. i dont mean any harm ((:

anyways, my sec1s are really adorable(how many times have i said that?)
they came to me &myra aft training &chit-chatted with us. &i found out hakim's dirty little secret((: hahaha .
kay, i'm mean. i shd stop disturbing lower sec people. ooops(:

*yawns*

2009-04-07T19:37:00.011+08:00

"I may be your sweet spot
Take me to your candy shop(:"

hi. im really bored, im gna start my revision on my ss soon.

dad's gona start drilling furniture soon, &it will get damn noisy.
&my past is rushing back altho i made a decision to leave it all behind.
okay, it's all in my hands (:

&my phone is annoying. it receives texts hours aft it's sent.
keeps resetting too. everything keeps resetting.
i wish my life could reset too. hahaha! no, im just kidding.

ohh, today's training was kind of fun+scary,
haha, fawwaz me myra were discussing on our future careers to prison to ghosts to penunggu at corners of th room.
&i got freaked out. ohhh, i found out why d&t workshops are not allowed to be used on friday evenings! haha okay shut up ly .

WHO LET TH DOGS OUT? HAHAHA, I SEE SO MANY DOGS OBEDIENTLY OBEYING THEIR OWNERS!

2009-04-06T20:35:00.005+08:00

my lovely blue turqoise watch has a slight tear at th band, &keeps resetting and th stopper thing is gone !
omg, i fucking love it dearly okaaaaaaaay)):

haaaaaaaaai, okay. i bought furniture yesterday. im sitting on my new sofa bed, yay!
my room's in a mess right now, & my mum's nagging.

I NEED TO STUDYYYYYYYY, there's science CT tmr fr god's sake! &i have like, 3 english compre+summary to finish? !!
GOSH LEAVE ME ALONE LAAA. BISINGGGGGG .

STRESS AH, STRESS !

2009-04-04T18:12:00.004+08:00

"once or twice was enough, &it was all in vain"

yos .

confessions of a shopaholic is a must watch(:

past few days has been exciting i must say. i dont think i even want to write everything down here. speech day is coming soon. napha(5 stations) was okay i guess, but i feel i want to retake. &my stomache muscle is aching so badly , that i went home &slept right after catching th movie with th girls. gosh.

u never knew how much this friendship means to me, never knew th wonders u brought in my life despite ur attitude i've been putting up with. u think i have no feelings ? well great. just go away,

2009-04-01T17:15:00.003+08:00

"crash &burn by simple plan"

hi im blogging 2 times in a row.

im proud to say i can start on my d&t product already. claps for me:D im right on track. yayy . haha.
okay , i just bought macs upsize fr lunch &hellopanda. die la, tmr is napha, &im eating fattening food. i bet i can only do inclined pull up &shuttle run. th rest, gone case. there goes th gold i wanted. haha its okay. i'll do 50 situps tonight. (mcm betul hahaha)

oh! speech day's coming, which means, last chance for me to show everyone cd footdrill bagus! haha, &mr clement's gg to hta just to get our pacesticks again(: what more, im rly looking forward to trainings. 4 of them became snco alr, &i can see a HUGE difference(: &my sec1s! i cant help but to repeat this, theyre so fucking adorable in their uniform ! they're cooperative too! haha cant deny they're th best batch of sec 1s :D i reaaaaaaaaly dont wana step down ):
i lovelove my unit ((:

2009-03-31T18:56:00.005+08:00

GET BACK ON YOUR FEET LY!

I CANT BE BOTHERED TO MEND WHAT'S DAMAGED ANYMORE. I'VE TRIED. THINK TWICE AGAIN, WHAT'S TH USE ? WHY HOLD ON TO A FRIENDSHIP THAT ISN'T TRUE, HOLD ON TO A FRIEND WHO DOESNT INSPECT BLACK&WHITE FIRST BEFORE CONCLUDING. YES I KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE THINKING. I FUCKING LET GO OF THIS FRIENDSHIP WITH THIS GROUP OF FRIENDS, IM SORRY TO THOSE WHO ARE AFFECTED, ESP HALS OKAY.

HAPPY NOW? DAH BYE.
EH WAIT, I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING. THERE WAS A REAL CASUALTY TODAY. KAKI PATAH &BENGKOK GILE BABI. HAHA.
COOL OKAY, THEN NCDCC HAD TO HELP. REAL ACTION! HAHAH OK SORRY.

2009-03-31T17:12:00.004+08:00

"hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone"

some say it takes a better person to walk away. some say just be urself. but sometimes, when ur intentions are good, people just tend to misunderstand. then people will look at us differently. &sometimes, when u try ur best to reach out to someone, you get coldness. &thats when you just give up on that person.

i dont know why im making th first move in this everytime but its no use keeping it bottled up for quite some time. i can choose to quit it, but i can also choose to uphold it. its all or nothing. people can just htink whatever they think , cos i like who i am now .

2009-03-29T21:08:00.004+08:00

well, if everyone wants to know whats in my mind, here it is.

oh gosh, now ure intruding into MY privacy? well, did i mention anth bout you fucking ur boyf/ex ? do you now how serious is that ? haha, well its okay. cos i know it aint true. you can like personally ask all th guys i went out with since ure so curious bout my life. &since you think that i've been blogging bout you,you think i so much time blog about u everyday ah ? pls lah, ive got better things to do, well, you misunderstood me i think. cos honestly speaking, i was referring to my ex, well most of it . my hatred to him is much more than my hatred to you.oh yeah , i do hate you esp for asking how it feels to get finger fucked by a guy and then get dumped. ahhaha. wow, i wonder which unreliable source did u get that from . well since you want me to blog bout you, here! :D i admit im super furious now but hey, ppl can get th REAL STORY here instead of gossiping here and there and listenting to ur false tales. &please, stop asking isa to pass whatever u said laa. &u said he was immature fr his age ? hah, u hardly knew him when u were with him so pls, get ur facts right. you want to report me to th teachers? well by all means(: haha big joke sia you. & what , u started kutuk-ing me just bcos of this blog thingy &ILYIA &cos ur ex teased u a little? hah, please ah. ilyia is just a good friend. well , unless ure jealous. dont think i dont know all ur dirty little secrets shas (: hehe. well, i would have cursed and swear but , i have my reasons. &why did i blog this out instead of talking to you? cos i rly cant stand ppl messing with my pride,(who can?) &all u can say in th msg was 'blabla' like you're some alien from outer space who doesnt know english language. hmm, well. u claim u want to beat me up? hehe, give me ur best shot (: im just next to ur class, u can burn my whole class skali if u want (: well, today is ur day , &i guess i'll just let god deal with th punishment. i wonder if u know how wrong is it to fitnah orang ? (:

dah im done, think twice ah. ure not even worth risking getting into trouble with th school. i've got a much more beautiful reputation to uphold ((:

2009-03-28T21:25:00.004+08:00

THANK YOU WENJIA FOR TH TICKS <>

yaaaaaaaaaay just got back &i had a great time! altho th ride was boring&slow wenjia me and mab had great time taking pictures and making friends with one woman whos from england. haha. wanted to rush home to help in th save th earth thingy. but i couldnt resist but to watch th drama show &of course i need light to do some homework. haha. sorry earth ):

2009-03-28T10:48:00.005+08:00

"cause with me its all or nothing,"

hi. past few days have been really , unexpected i guess.

free periods spent sliding 'letters' to unknown people under th door of th classroom next to library-.- baking of more cookies. rumours. &cca was fun, seeing new cadets learning to wear uniform altho there wasnt any footdrill): nevertheless, th sec1s really made my day(: so adorablee(: &ilyia just had to steal my baby picture frm me once again. nvm la, i think he rindu ah over th weekends. HAHA.
&that's all i can remember so far . hah.

chey chey chey. bagus ah tu. you're so full of fucking shit i cant stand, kopet.

okay flyer later with wenjia &mabelle. goodbyee (:

2009-03-25T16:47:00.003+08:00

"i've had a little bit too much,"

inilah anak ciner sesat.

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind &look a bit harder. cos we’re so uninspired, so sick &tired of all the hatred you harbor. fuck youuu, fuck you very very much. cos your words don’t translate &it’s getting quite late, so please don’t stay in touccch. do you, do you really enjoy living a life that’s so hateful? cos there’s a hole where your soul should be. you’re losing control of it &it’s really distastefuuuuuuuul!

2009-03-24T19:24:00.002+08:00

hi blog. i'll just keep things to myself. since i dont think anyone cares or feels th same way. i miss people, i miss the carefree days. people change, i change. i think im thinking too much of what everyone thinks, or rather, what they MAY BE thinking.

ku hodoh. aku digelar hodoh. uglyuglyugly. why not just disappear from this worrrrrlddddd if im so freaking uglaaaaaaay. this name calling is making my self esteem low. i dont know since when i take this kind of thing to heart. maybe cos i get it too often. hahaha. gosh, idk why im writing this down,

hahahaha. stupid bitch, just stop functioning ur brain. since when i started writing this kind of shit on my blog. idk. im just so freaking pissed and my mind is everywhere; from family to girlfriends to halals to studies to cca to almost evth.

sorry if im putting evth down here like frankly. thats why th font is small. to whoever who bother reading this till here, you just wasted ur time, hhaha. i reeaaaaaaaaaaly dont know who to turn to. &sometimes, u just talk to urself, like what im doing now. fuckfuck , hahaha. bye blog.

2009-03-22T20:08:00.004+08:00

school's starting tomorrow , which means, mid years are nearby ):

okay, i miss alot of people currently. maybe this picture is famililar to some(: look closely at th words!
it's not th wrong spelling, it's 'HALS'. &yes, i fucking miss them like hell currently. everyone's busy with studies, their own cliques, family probs , relationships. &our outing that was supposed to be last week was even cancelled due to some reasons):

i remember th first day in Japan. i miss trying to freeze th icecream in th toilet sink; jumping on th bed &being so uncivilised-.- ; getting so excited over th ice machine outside th hotel corridor, running in and out as if we own th whole floor; &most of all , just pouring our feelings/problems out among th 4 of us. we weren't close then but somehow, we just felt comfortable sharing our heart's content. &i would really looovve another one of those 'dialougue sessions', cos i guess i rly need one now.

but i guess everyone's busy with their own life now . i remember one of us saying. what will happen after th trip? will all of us still acknowledge each other &make time for each other or will we be just total strangers. gosh, i hope that never will happen. k enough , can cry sia .

&of course, not forgetting my beloved unit(: didn't know i'd be sooo into this cca when i first converted to it during sec2. slowly, my passion for this cca just grew, god knows why. ups &downs were shared together with my 2 seniors, clarence and fawwaz. &those who converted along with me, hockmeng danial &myra . although we had little manpower, we received help from other UGs too. but of course, it was fawwaz who went through fuckloads of shit as he was th only sec4 left standing-.- soon, 4 of us took over &i really want to see th unit excel.

esp since its th 1st year we're getting tested for th UOPA &its my freaking last year-.- i guess i've done what i could, just leave it to god eh ? although some of them betul2 cekik darah. but i promised to do my best to change ppl's pandangan of my unit(: this cca has really mould me into a better person &i thank god fr that (:

well, if i can sweat &maybe even get injured fr my cca &excel in it, why not fr my studies right(:

2009-03-21T23:05:00.008+08:00

"it takes a better person to walk away(:"

using my bro's new lappy(: pretty thing, i feel like swapping it with mine.

deleted previous post.

dah dah cukup. enough with this hate thingy. do wdv you want.

only god knows who u really are, &what kind of friends you have.

not worth our bitching time k girls ? (:

lets just do whatever we want that will make us happy(:

___

haha i read bedah's blog . ilyia better keep my picture in one piece, or i'll slaughter him alive. &i hope he reads this, stupid bab.

i've done all my homework and some malay practice &even revison on sec3 physics thanks to mr sean for th notes :D &im so satisfied with myself(:

not forgetting, my room is soo empty now. i reassembled my bigbig bunkbed myself(: , to make room for sofabed, desk, shelf, and laptop desk thingy(:

ohhh, &i just made my own cookies! although th 1st tray terbakar sikit:/

i want to bring it to sch on monday! then my partner has to be th first to taste it!(watch out wenjia).

not forgetting th 2 'gentlemen' beside us . haha! yaaaay (:

more revisions tmr(: ok bye !

2009-03-20T18:59:00.006+08:00

"with every cruel intentions,

you helped me find my independence(:"

FLOUR!
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, ELIZ! :D

hi. stop doing those bloody step sexy pose &at least have your own fashion sense la, PLEASE ! STOP THINKING PEOPLE CAN ONLY DIRECT ALL THEIR ATTENTION TO YOU . pls ah, cermin muke sendiri dulu lahhhhh. oh better, self reflect on black heart first (: cause one day you will see what everyone including your friends think of you. dont you think you're living in a world full of lies ? hah! amazing how people think we hate you cos we're jealous; haven't you heard that if many-many ppl are against you, means th problem lies with you? HUH, HAVE YOU ? k this is enough. i hope god really punish you for wdv ure doing. im not gonna curse and swear you(: tambah dosa je, hmph.

okay , one of my classmate stole my 5 year old picture. kay, did everyone see th previous sentence? i guess only the girls will kind of understand-.- im being a bitch. hahahhaha!

moving on , celebrated eliz bday ytd. skipped cca, was optional. sorry myra ! ): so, everyone came to my house. go to my multiply for th pictures. i will update it soon-.- okay, 2pics as a summary of that lovely day (:

i dont think im going to sentosa with th girls tmr): since nana &wenjia are not also &i've been enjoying too much this hols): i'll do my room evth by tmr. &finish up homework.

i typed alot today eh? im gona be a noob for this year.
woooooo~

2009-03-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

"im here without you,

but you're still with me in my dreams."

i've got more ideas to design my rooom!

&im addicted to eliz's blog song. you'll be right here with mee (:
sooo, went to study everyday with friends,
did d&t whole day yesterday with myra, lesta &dzu. kinda awkward a little cause haven't seen them for ages.
then today, studied with th girls at bedok library. i managed to concentrate &did many sums (:
after KFC, went to IKEA . haha, had fun theree .

hahaaaa, &i almost forgot i need to go CDA with th sec1s tmr. like malas ah wna go-.-
i still haven't siapkan my uniform ! :O

2009-03-16T19:46:00.006+08:00

"should have started running long long time ago, "

just finsished helping put my bro's cupboard tgt, & clearing up th kitchen. good daughter eh(:
&i thought i'd blog something out as this is th best way to express my feelings.

p.s. if you guys want to kpo2 read, can.. but if you got negative comments, just keep it to yourself, kay? (:

it's been one of th best moments of my life to be your cool and bestest buddy (maybe more) , &i really treasure each moment i spend with you. you know &i know how we feel fr each other. &knowing my character , well, you should know that i want to get what i want &i do what i want; like i dont like people controlling my actions and having to care what others feel &make my life more complicated cos you're jealous or angry. cos hey, i am single &i can do whatever i like(: right? &i really really hold strongly to my beliefs like 'no such things as love now', 'studies my priority now'. okay, i'll get to th point. i fucking hate it when you said that you took Os just to be with me fr another year. that totally sucks, & it's just plain stupid coming fr you. you flung ur common tests. hey, its not just some stupid test okay, those test shows how you've been coping with th first few topics of th year. &you cant even pass that? how do you know that you'll ever be ready fr Os if you dont take your tests seriously? what, you want to repeat th mistake ur 'brother' made ? gosh, pls. dont waste your time taking Os, if you choose to fail Os , might as well take th ite route right ? like, why waste a fucking year to just see my fucking face. dont tell me, love ah love? dumbshit, love fucking dont exist now. in a few years time, you'll just forget me , find someone new and better out there, who's worthy of your love when you're an adult alr. im not trying to make u upset or asking you to back out in th Os or wdv(which you cant) , just asking you to fucking WAKE UP YOUR IDEA. cause i really fucking care as a fucking close friend. what happened to your dreams to prove to everyone that you cn make it to JC? huh ? my dear isa, please, work hard fr your Os . NOT fr me, but fr yourself, okay? peace kay , dont beat me up when you see this (:
-
i saw something. THAT SMIRK . ahh !

2009-03-15T22:58:00.005+08:00

"as far as im concerned,
you're just another picture to burn,"

HIII EVERYONEEEEEE!! :D
I NEVER FELT BETTER AT THIS POINT OF TIME IN MY LIFE, &I JUST REALISED (:

k, my dad just bought a skin fr my laptop. & it fucking looks gorgeous now! :D
&i just got back frm ikea. bought curtains &stuff. my room's gona get some makeover :D

okay, holidays aint holidays anymore. schedule is damn packed fr next week.
classes includes d&t which takes up my whole afternoon fr 5 consecutive days. lucky i only have to attend at least 1 day, cos i have been a good girl (:
catching up / outing with ncdcc peeps like haikal lesta ,
oh &also isa. it's been long since i hung out with him. see, i didn't forget you isa. be thankful you've got a friend like me! :D
planning to exercise often, keep fit &hapuskan th excess fats ! :D
furnace with my lovely sec1 cadets (aww, trust me , they're so fucking adorable &cooperative)
&&last but not least , SENTOSA OUTING WITH GIRLFIES ! i've been spending lots of times with them recently, &im having th time of my life :D

okay, so basically that's it. studies still my priority though. lots of stuff to squeeze into my tinywiny brain.
ohh if you know of any good chem tutor, pls intro me to him/her. looking fr one. thanks :D

2009-03-14T12:52:00.006+08:00

fr you bedah (:
&oh! just concentrate on nana towards th end of th video. damn cute eh she! haha!

gosh , im stuck in my d&t. i hate the ideation part.

2009-03-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

its not like drifitng away from one close friend is not enough,
why let th feelings of crush/'love' affect one's friendship ?

i've had enough , &sometimes i just wish a friendship between both sex is purely as friends.
nothing more.

2009-03-13T21:27:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BEDAHHH! :D

okay , many things happened this week. soo, get ready fr a long post (:

first off, ptm ! ohmygod , i really hate MdmY. to th core. dont say im unreasonable or wdv shit when u didnt get her as ur form teacher fr 3 years !
so she complained that im too distracted &asked if im in a bgr. which made my mum think im in one. so basically she made my mum accuse me of stuff which were untrue at home_|_ msL. even said th opposite of what she said. see! dont u guys think mdmY. just can teach fr fck?
ugh, u just have to try seating in her lessons to knw what i mean. anyways, i failed 1 subject which was amaths. surprise surprise ? -.-
overall, i think th main objective of th ptm was so that th teachers could give bad remarks bout us so we would buck up. hah, im talking nonsense.
skiiiiipp ;

then today! halal outing cancelled! D:
so, cross country. first aider, ahh slack. then waited fr th others, bedah didnt manage to come when she was th bday girl): but we continued with th plan cos we bought th cake alr .
went under some block . took a video esp fr bedah(go see eliz blog or whoever's) .
thennn, FLOUR SESSION. hahah (once again, go look fr th video at whoever's blog). off to meryl hse to swim. had loads of fun :D if only wj and bedah could have come! grr.
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its normal fr you to whine when someone disturbs you right ?
well, i cant help it if th 2 guys sitting beside me are 2 irritating idiots who keeps disturbing, kan ?! pfft.
dont get th wrong idea. clearing misunderstandings .

i would like to rant about many things, but yeah , not today. goodnight (:

idk what happened to you, since when huh ? oh maybe its sympathy cos many ppl just cant stand her! ohmygod, why are you not looking into her faults ?! oh blinded ah , i know why ! HAH .

2009-03-09T22:20:00.005+08:00

" &i wonder if you know that i know, "

-candid shot , HAHA !

it's been long since i hugged that thing to bed, very long i guess.
msg/call only at night, no phone in th morning cos i cant be bothered to find a spare phone.

busy schedule this week. looking forward to friday afternoon.
k bye .

2009-03-08T13:27:00.005+08:00

"state the obvious ,
i didnt get my perfect fantasy ."

070309, promoting national UG! < 3

how does it feel when everyone around you is used to joking around with you,
&when you talk about something serious, it turns out to be a joke to them, all of them.
&all you can do is just smile ? aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!

i hope someone understands, really.
oh, i had fun during exco step down yesterday. esp during th parade &the ending.
played with rain &hose &was soaking wet! :D heheeeeeeeee .

p.s. my phone is sent for servicing, so.. pandai2 ah contact me (:

2009-03-03T18:16:00.006+08:00

"you can't give up looking for a diamond in th rough ,

you'll never know when it shows up."

mountain @thailand '08 . see th clouds ! :D

bro texted warning me that mum found my letters from friends/family.
i was terribly shocked &frightened. mum called &warned &told me to go home straight .
i didnt -.- but as soon as i reached home , she just told me ;
"who's isa? better not let me catch you trying to be funny ah. kiss kiss. anytime i can check ur phone. takde kerje eh write letters, can study all, go write letters."
hahaha. god, unexpected from my mum ? thought she would have slaughtered me-.-

okay blah , i think for now, i'll just go with th flow or bottle up my feelings until i explode.
gaboom !

2009-03-01T17:58:00.005+08:00

"she's got everything i have to live without,"

-when physics teacher doesn't give a damn about th class./

i feel lost . i feel cold. i feel like sleeping to just run away from all these shit that's happening . life is changing. feelings are changing. everyone is changing . either for th better, or worst . my unit's gonna crash &burn. future sncos are slacking. i've got to do something, fast. i cant give up on them although they're pathetic. sometimes i just wish someone can tell what's my faults so i can improve. so i can have a wake up call. i think i need one . hah .
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you know what ?
i feel like banging my head against my laptop. aaaaaaaaah!!!!
i fucking need to get this off my chest. i need to talk to some reliable person who would understand. i cant keep this inside any longer ! oh god. fuck you, you shd have kept your mouth shut ! D:

2009-02-27T23:22:00.004+08:00

"thought our days would last forever,"

sometimes i just wish i could turn back time to my carefree days.
sometimes i just wish i would stop thinking of what others think.
sometimes i just wish i could do better for my unit.
sometimes i just think I'm such a failure.
sometimes i just think my life is aimless.
sometimes i just wish i could have my loved ones to myself,
where we can enjoy &have th time of our lives.

maybe i should just do whatever i think is right / good for me . yeah, maybe i should .

2009-02-24T19:37:00.006+08:00

"someone who could love you more than i could,
someone who dares to stand where i stood."

moodswings. sorry whoever. &watch out.

i need to claim my concession pass asap. my form teacher is f. useless to th core.

2009-02-22T18:29:00.010+08:00

"get th best out of it before its gone. "

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i think you guys are just corrupted in every possible way there is .
good luck man.

i got some gel for my panau(s). i hope it will disappear, asap .

2009-02-21T16:36:00.007+08:00

"I thought love was black and white, that it was wrong or it was right.
But you ain't leaving without a fight, &I think I am just as torn inside"

i'm not sure where im heading; im not sure who are th ones who will really catch me when i fall anymore.

sorry to whoever. period-moodswings.
its okay if you dont understand this post -.-

2009-02-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

chem worksheet, booooringg .

&i just have to say something.
i hate it when people wears their caps as if they have no heads. in other words, their caps are flying above their heads. wah, i feel like smacking it down to fit their heads whenever i see them.
(referring to those typical mat wannabes).
&not only that. they wanna act cool but dislike people disliking them. &have th guts to ask ppl if they hate them. like, whaaaaat? isn't it obvious-.-
(referring to those typical mat wannabes in my tution)

yeah, just got back from tution and caps like passed my mind when i was writing my essay.
so friends, dont wear flying caps in front of me k. defeating th purpose of wearing a cap . not stye at all .

back to hw. bye :D

2009-02-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

"without you ,
im seeing myself so differently ."

boom !
past few days has been okay. hah. i think . let's just start from yesterday.

marife narrative course. blaaaaah. then went to catch a movie with isa. the curious case of benjamin button? i would rate it 6/10 . story was kind of dragging-.- but it was interesting tho. then headed to bugis &waitred for his friends. saw syahir ally for th first time. didn't even knew it was him at first-.- &the rest came & they went to sheesha .
headed home at 9+ ?

anywaaaay . to all; isa's not my boyf okay. just wana clear people's misunderstandings / doubts(?)
no mood so study, i want to rant smth, but it will just make everyone's life difficult.
come to think of it, YOU, dont even have a true friend.

2009-02-11T22:44:00.006+08:00

"Do you , do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful ? "

sry fr th previous post, i removed it . was being emotional , ahh.
i respect you buddy, so im removing it, for your sake .

fire drill was alright i guess. hot daaaay. people, dont complain. cos i even have to wear my thick uniform which made us sweat like PIGS being burnt alive .

i just read notes/ letters from 2008. from friends / loved ones. letters of apology, letters of friendship. letters of th past . definitely made me cry. &as i read one of them, i felt th same heart-stabbing kind of pain like when i read it in th past. &i just wonder again , why ? of all people. it made me think; he could even hurt me to that extend &just pretend everything was alright. i guess i was just living in a world full of lies then. be it friendship, or love.

dont terase. there's Amaths tmr. aaaaaaaaaaaaaah. holy shiiiiiiiit. i hate youuuuuuuuuuuu, stupid fat ass. i freaking hate it when u ask me to seat at th front to see your dinosaur face &force me to concentrate &treat me like im some stupid slenge ! tho i am at times. aaarghhhh. yeah, read this you kaypo teachers. whateverrrrrr _|_

something to look forward tmr ! PE ! tug of waaaaarrrr :D

2009-02-08T22:02:00.013+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ABANG-GAY ku ! :D

i'll start with yesterday's outing+english course :D had marife from 10-1pm. beneficial course. then went cycling with my dear gfs :D bedah myra and his bro. while th others had to attend th 2nd part of th course. cycled from tamp to pasir ris. &topang-ed bedah at times.
IM STRONNG OKAAY :D

&todaay! I GOT A NEW PHOONNEEE~ its brown, like my wallet. evth seems to be brown now. haha . wokaaay, wont talk much . enjoy the pictureess i've taken since idk when, though my hair really sucks everyday ):

WO promotion;
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070209 ;

p.s. not meant to mean anything . everyone took pictures with th 'R' cos it looks cool (:

i was trying to climb onto th dinosaur -.-
MY ASS! :D

"&that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic."

2009-02-06T22:46:00.004+08:00

oh look! :D

"i dont know what's right and real anymore,
&i dont know how im meant to feel anymore."

2009-02-03T18:18:00.003+08:00

AS YOU KNOW , I DO NOT SAY 'HIYA ' . i guess SOMEONE , went in my account without me knowing &started to post nonsense again. hahahahha. so yea, th previous post isn't written by me (:
tujuan saya berada di sini ialah untuk mengucapkan,

SELAMAT HARI JADI KEPADA SI SENSAT(inside joke) INI (:

hahaha, it's difficult talking in malay like this-.- anywaaaay, we've come a long way, esp in our cca . when we were first in sjab-.- haha omg pathetic. but we nvr regretted right ? then to ncdcc, as privatesxzs (look at th picture!) . && now, its only like3 days to our last stage of promotion in th cca? hehe:D i've shared great moments with you, be it as my girlfriend or squadmate(: i've seen you never bathe for days, you have seen me like that too(hahahaha) you stay strong okay, do ur best in evth . studies dulu. then guys(worthy ones). like i said, u will find ur prince charming one day, or have you ? hahaha. okay then. all th best my dear sensat (:
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&to you my dear buddy . dont worry . evth's gona be alright. not angry not mad not whatever, just disappointed. dont be too hard on urself kaay. i dont want ur apology, cos i dont need it in th first place. your life, your body, you decide what's best for you. loves ,

goodbye :D

2009-02-03T16:38:00.003+08:00

hiya! lyly here...

WHEN I WATCHED YOU WALK AWAY.
WELL,I NEVER THOUGHT ID SAY IM FINEEEE, WITHOUT YOUUUUUUUU!

thats all i wanna say.

2009-01-31T18:05:00.005+08:00

chaaak ?

life's been okay . i guess . i'll blog , but not that often .
&i promise, from this day onwards , i wont let my past affect me, esp when all of it are just pure lies ?
dont you think i've changed ? i feel weird, but i feel me . hah, i dont make sense.

kay, enough . im really looking forward to prom night (: &i nvr expected my punching/slapping/pinching bag would be graduating with me too. aww .

okay, back to studying , bye !

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday,
Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently.

2009-01-13T17:42:00.004+08:00

surpirse surprise. i've removed th archives. &change th setting so you can see only one post . cos i've made a decision to stop blogging, for th meantime. why ? i've got my reasons .you can add me at msn if you would want to contact me (: izz_lyna@hotmail.com

i believed, i hoped, i dreamt, i sacrificed.
&its time to stop doing so now cause it's been way too long.

2009-01-12T18:48:00.008+08:00

"stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known,
I am not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
i was a dreamer before you went &let me down."

2009-01-10T22:21:00.014+08:00

okay, just got back from msia.

kay, cca fair was great! except fr th fact that i dont think we'll recruit many sec1s. &th fact that i cocked up once during th parade. pfft, its okay lyly (: i'll let th pictures do th story telling(:
nights !

i love them all <>

2009-01-08T18:24:00.005+08:00

this is th way that we love, like its forever.

A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell ,

hello. cca fair is tmr. there will be firesuits,firefighters (!) &fire(duh). &i diedie will carry th mistgun everywhere &ketuk anyone who makes fun of my cca. &i'll be carrying a pacestick. lovely(: wish me luck people, i really have no confidence as th contingent commander. enjoy th slow song(: goodbye !

2009-01-06T19:16:00.005+08:00

hehe. my eyes are gone ! :o

i miss someone in particular; hmm ,

&school's a bore; part of it.
i cant stare from th 3rd storey at th 1st storey classrooms or th volleyball court anymore.
so saddening, that it's so heartbreaking ):
nvm, there's always th yearbook. aww~ it can make my day just by looking at it (:

HAHA ! okay, im serious. i miss those times.
kay, i've been a good girl in class these few days . well done lyly .
*pats my own head*
woo~ there's only geography &D&T tmr. th rest are free periodsss, assembly &cme blablabla.
hehehe. &traiiningggg fr cca fair! (: i wish i could hug every single one of my cadet at one go .
i love them, hehehe. bye (:

2009-01-04T18:23:00.002+08:00

tak pernah ku coba melupakanmuu,
sungguh tak bisaaaa, ku mengganti dirmu dengan dirinya ,
sungguh tak sanggup aku berpaling dari muu .
sungguh tak bisaaa, ku mencintainya untuk melupakanmuu .

LALALALA! MY HAIR SUCKS LA. MANN , I REGRET CUTTING MY FRINGE!
MCM MANGKUK !
k no. exaggerating. oh nooo, & there's school tmr. oh shit! D:

girlfriends. im sorry fr not spending time with you guys. not even bothering to , or wdv.
but it takes 2 hands to clap. i did my part. you know me, hot tempered. yeah , i hate waiting very long, alone. &if you guys want to go with your cliques, then so be it. i dont want any fights or people to think im unfair or wdv shit. she get her stuff settled &evth will be fine. till then, i have to act &think RATIONALLY unlike some people .
love you all <3
(do i make sense here? -.- we need to talk, pronto )

2009-01-03T11:33:00.008+08:00

do you think i look like a small kid ? i dont think so (:

i realise my posts are super freaking long . i'll make this short .

mum's being an ass. she wants me to study until i die.
therefore, i cant go today's ndp bbq/gathering. ugh.
yesterday's training went well, good start fr this new year(altho attendance wasnt that good)
danial actually had th guts to say 'im back!' when he came in th ncd room. i swear i could have smacked his face.

LYLY; says:
then th ncc guy, (name censored)
kpo again
then he train th leftovers.
(-efortunc-) says:
basket....
(-efortunc-) says:
i never liked him you know
LYLY; says:
haha u think i do ?

2009-01-01T20:40:00.004+08:00

fuck you matrep. i regret knowing/dating you last time . i hope you die and go to hell.
let me get this straight. im still a virgin and forever will until i get married. there, done.

&mum , just shut up . UG now is diff from th past. im th chairman &what, u expect we to lepas tangan like that just cos you dont wna lose face? just cos you're scared i'll fail &all those shit. you just dont wna bear th embarassment right ? just shut up, cos i will prove you wrong. i'll study hard, train hard, & play hard. just wait &see. it's standard that cca steps down only during june fr those taking Os. so dont be stupid to ask me to step down now. thanks . im not th same as abang, so stop treating me like him. thank my cca for what i am now. without my cca, i bet you'll have another version of my brother. so think properly ah ibu, stop being so selfish.

2009-01-01T16:54:00.006+08:00

let's watch as you crash &burn, fucker.

hey ho. kay blablabla . im gona blog bout this year, like what other people did . same old thing. so ya.

so 2008 was unexpectedly a fruitful and fun year . i rmbr last december 2007, i wasnt looking forward to 2008. spent th last moments of 2007 with isa. haha, yeah. we're currently just bestfriends.
so, was holding to th past and shit. but as 2008 passed, i learned how to look forward to th future, make th best out of th present , &slowly let go of th past. i didnt say i did let go, but yeah. time healed evth.
tho it would have been faster if that someone didnt come in &out of my life quite often. hah, kay, last line tak perlu -.-

in terms of cca, took over fawwaz's as th chairman of my unit. passed th UDI course, &went thru th SNCO course alone; god, i nvr want to go thru that again;
&highlight of my life as a ncdcc cadet; NDP '08. no doubt it was full of experience and thought me how to endure, prioritise my time better, socialise more &many more. th best part is we created friendship with other schools and not forgetting th sirs. i rmbr bedok south being close to th sirs like sir fairuz, sir hadi , sir fadio &many more. they even bought us famous amos secretly . haha! that was suppose to be a secret but wdv. then i rmbr ms foong buying ALL of us starbucks to share. imagine how much she spent :0
&not forgetting, she cried in th bus aft one of th trainings, &th whole bus was like totally quiet.

friends, i guess i have a th best people around me:D
gfs like nana wenjia khairah meryl bedah. been thru bad &good times tgt. thousand apologies to 2 of my gfs when i had my case thing. so, lost some & gained some friends in 2008. some which i almost lost but managed to mend all that's broken before its too late. i thank god fr that.
oh, not forgetting halals ! we just got close ater th japan trip . namely hamdan shah aaron nad syir viv. didnt know i would be myself with them cos i was being stupid with exco early this year due to my case &cos everyone taught i was mixing with bad company &i was a bad girl . &i didnt deserve to be a leader. hah ! in your face, assholes(: i would love to say that to abraham's face if i could.

&&love life ? well, what can i say. being single is definitely th best. do wdv you want, mix with whoever you want. you're free to do anth . but yeah, i should really stop changing my mind bout that, i shd rly be sure of who i want, cos i know i have broken many hearts. &im so so sorry. didnt mean to. but ya, i promise myself to change fr th better. friends last forever right ? relationships never did last at this point of life. i never was a good gf aniway (: so whaaateverrrr, miss independent ahh :D

so yeah , i've been thru shit at times but that's life right ? i guess im rly looking forward to 2009. Os coming . i hope it will be better than this year. came a long way in 2008; &i rly hope to change fr th better in 2009. one thing to look forward to-WO promiotion(: woo~ go lyly !

kay. i'll end this post by saying some stuff based on my experience. you cant always stick to your close/true friends. you have to extend your social life. you cant halang your close friends from having other close friends. they have their own life to lead too. take me fr example. i had a hard time with exco earlier this year. i felt totally left out cos my gfs and exco are two different worlds apart. bt i managed to balance both parties &my gfs even understand me when i say i have outing with exco or wdv. so yeahh. that's all . happy new year people (:

2008-12-31T11:41:00.008+08:00

yes, i do know how to play,

oh-kayy , im back. i had fun during my trip (pictures @ multiply ) &th NCO camp . NCO camp; i was just looking froward to footdrill. footrill is like my playground man. haha, but most of th parade square is taken up by either netball or npcc. god, its a PARADE SQUARE. not a sports place. why do you think they're making a sports hall-.- &wait, ncdcc was th first to be at th parade square. ever heard of 1st come 1st serve? you shd stop thinking YOU, own th parade square. cause you dont. lets just see who's gna win when th ugs will be using th parade square almost everyday before cca fair yeah? so fawwaz was like dedicating a song to th botak guy. hahaha. damn funny. &we had to give way, &share th carpark with other ugs most of th times. do you know its dangerous, esp when u have to use th part where thers a hill?-.- i hope th sports hall opens soon !

kay i have to rant. up to you to read. i wont care who will read; which friend, which guy, whoever. i've thought bout all these duirn my trip &i've realised some things.

i realised i havent been spending time with gfs that much that theyre not th ones who i share my problems with .
i realised those who rly cared fr me, are th ones who has always been advicing me &stuff. th ones who is always willing to wait &give me second chances. th one who accepts me for who i am. th one who fucking knows me well .
i realise what my bestfriend said was true on th night i went to wenjia's chalet.
i realised i've been a fucking bitch to alot of guys, &i owe thema fucking apology .
i realised i have been putting my cca as my priority rather than family that i'd rather go cca than follow them fr a holiday fr the past school holidays.
i realised halals isnt as close as before due to some stuff . why cant we be like when we're in japan ?
gosh, i dont know what to do now .
new year's resolution ? won't put it here, but i guess i know wht i wana change/achieve .

sometimes perfection can just be perfect hell when you dont realise it .

okay, i've got most of it off my chest. now, there will surely be people questioning me, this &that. ugh. okay, i'll just concentrate on th cca fair. well, my cca is like th only thing tht makes me satisfied always. heh . bye .

2008-12-24T22:17:00.005+08:00

haha! shit face .
kay fast one , cos i need to set off to KL soon. wanted to go school today but think think , like dont need. so met him . slacked around school area. then tution cancelled. blaaaah. &mum told me to buy maggi fr my own dinner. z. so he accompanied me and stuff, &sent me to 12bus stop.
thanks fr today (:

haiiis . i dont feel like going ahh . shah &khairah are alr at KL. syir's coming tmr i guess. we're gona have a gathering &party there. woo~ hahah k stop it.
OH YA ! loookkk! :DDDD so much fr giving total crap during th interview. lucky i guess(:
there will be a promotion ceremony. k best. lesta got it too, so congrats to him!

OY TO TH WORLDD ~ HEHE. I LOVE EVERYONE AHH . K BYE :D
oh ya ,

MERRY CHRISTMAS (:
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2008-12-22T20:48:00.003+08:00

hello wenjia's totis(:

okay great day. went out with gfs (: wanted to study, but ended up, playing cards. haha! so i was taught taiti(?) & we also played cheat. haha mann, i suck at that game. i cant lie fr shit. everytime i lie, i'll be like looking at either khairah or wj. &i'll laugh. hahah. so i played a clean game &i lost-.- duh,

then met S(: , went to ecp. then i felt damn hungry. so went to parkway there &ate at a nearby foodcourt. then he sent me home. god , my menses came &no wonder i felt so tired tht i fell asleep in th bus. heh . okaay, he's gna have to report to camp or wdv shit again tmr. wahh D:

isa, please ehh. you dont have to tell me what to do , takecare of my life and shit. yes, were best buddies, you can encourage me , advice me and all those shith. i know who i mix with, you dont have to tell me who is bad company and whos not. cos i can day that ure bad company too. you're so egoistic y'know. wtfuck ah, its better if you're th person you are when you talk to me 24/7. get wht i mean ? cos or not, you'll be like so yaya. &you're telling others they're th ones acting big. i dont get this gangster shit. why th hell are u doing all these. its like stupid lahh, &youre wasting your time. as a good friend, im advising. if you continue this behaviour of yours, how are u gna concentrate next year ? last thing, yes, he's not my boyf, but he still deserves to be treated right. i dont want to be known as using guys or as a player, like him. so ya. talk to me when you think throughly what you've done.

2008-12-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

wahhh, thanks eh isa. for everything . uggh.

moving on. went shopping with mum yesterday. bought maaaaany stuffs i needed. hehe. plus, im gg KL with family next weds. more shopping babeeehh ! hahaha.
&im going out with gfs tmr(: hopefully it will turn out ehh. &he's going off again tmr. damnn. i doubt i'll get to see him anytime soon due to my hols &his schedule too. &school's starting in 2 weeks time. hols then camp then new year, then poof! school start. &then Os. haiyooo.

oooh~ sad parents didnt allow me to follow halals go th soccer match today. wtfuck uh. shah didnt go too aniway. heard from hamdan th mats there are so kecoh giler babs. haha. guess my mum's right. oh well. soccer's not th thing fr me (:

must start studying! k bye.
p.s. outing soon please halals! miss you guys :D

2008-12-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

cos im'a good girl :D

guess everything will be alright. just tht i had cramps/gastric (?) since morning. wth lahh, its like on-off thing &it was killing me at times. k wdv. sec1 registration was a total mess; th new kids are th ones who are so pampered lahh , &i see possible minahrep wannabes, &i shd have stationed at foyer or smth. i can have fun saying "have a nice day maam(:"
whoo~ he is back(: kay stop. dah go sleep. ehh, money drop from sky ahhh! HEHE:D

i think this should stop. its starting to be very irritating &troublesome y'know.

2008-12-17T20:30:00.013+08:00

kay so ecp was cancelled. ended up accompanying wj to make her ic photo at pasir ris inter. went downtown. she got tazmanian devil soft toy through th machine thingy-.- then kfc. &home. whoa, she's like some laughing gas lahh , hahah. crazy girl.

ps. wj, i'll send u th pics thru msn yeah(:

aniway , i just got more pics of japan from shah. omggg,

I FUCKING MISS HALALS IN JAPAN !

some pics fr you to look at (:
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first night, only 4 malays &we had th same phones! look !~
(hamdan's, shah's, aaron's &lyly's )
look fat here-.-
spot th headless syirene (:
round round oranges,

coach with "batu" :D
muker smue merepek,

dinner (diff posings , haha! )
STARBUCKS ! (:
ohoh! this picture up here reminded me of th video we took. damn funny! hahahah. we were like acting out a hari raya scene. miss them !

2008-12-17T13:02:00.002+08:00

im gona sleep back. so much fr looking forward to meeting gfs.
yah, they're more important altho we planned this like, idk when.

well, at least i still have halals. great, i'll be meeting them tmr(:
bye!