i am confused
i am confused
i am confused
i am confused
i am confused
i miss the past
i miss the past
i miss the past
i miss the past
i miss the past
i miss the past

someone shoot me dead please.
wait no, dosa.
i wana sleep forever and ever&ever&ever.


hell yeah,why do you get a high chance when you dont even giv a f.ing damn.
)':

And he wouldn't understand


So hard to see myself without him
I felt a piece of my heart break
But when you're standing at a crossroad
There's a choice you gotta make


I guess it's gonna have to hurt
I guess I'm gonna have to cry
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side


I guess it's gonna break me down
Like falling when you try to fly
Sad but sometimes
Moving on with the rest of your life
Starts with goodbye


I know there's a blue horizon
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me
Getting there means leaving things behind
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet


Time heals the wounds that you feel
Somehow, right now

i almost cried when listening to this song.blablabla.

:(

dont know wher she belongs.

okaaay.so ytd.
went to milo's place.
to play with adam.
tho i didnt really play with him.

i like Adam's pantat:D

then eliz cant come.
wanted to alt skirt with her,screw it.

then aft that went to spore post.
ate at macs.
&milo ter-duduk at the place for those mac motorbikers.
they stared at her &she quicly moved away.
hahaha.

okay whatever.
went to send syir to her car aft that.
ran like lipas.
hahaha.cos syr was hidin stuff frm her parents.
kay.then went to fetch isa.

28 wif isa and milo.
&milo turun halfway-.-
biittcch.
hahah.k blah.

isa lapar.but i WASNT.
he forced me to eat tho.
so went to starbucks.

cheescake&caramel frap.
FREE.cos isa blanje(:
hahahah.thanks isa.
k everyone,go keja him &ask hym for free food:D
aft dat,i felt lyk puking.seriously.

&isa,stfu bout the prince charming-.-

then he went to buy stuff at bedok.
&9-ed home at 5.

SUPP(: NIE SIS KESAYANGAN KUUU:D HAHA.

i need a break from all this fucking shit.
i wana go on a holidayy:(

its time move on also kann?
time to erase all this stupid feelings that's just wasting my life
when he dont even bother.

&last night,will be the last time i cried for you.

hold on.only god knows how deep my feelings are.
why am i crying?

oke,firstly,
happy 15th isa(:

oke so went to watch bratz at marina square today.
wnt wif syir eliz & milo.
i dont regret paying 7bucks for it okee(:

its like abt 4girls,with diff intrests,
gg to high school.then they are separated frm each other bcos of cliques.
bla bla.must watch okee!:D

aft movie,went shoppinng.i bought a nice nice belt(:
u kno the kain kind of belt?yeahhh.i like(:

then then.syir went home aft that.went to penin.,
milo takut wana go in and buy her purple skinnies-.-
cos cos.there were hot hot mats:D

so milo hid,eliz &me went it and bought for her,her skinnies.

then then.eliz gave the lady 50bucks.
&the lady went out pretending to take the change.
but stood outside pretending we didnt have any change.
bittcchh.at last we just told her off.

then isa & azmeer came.went to eat at sakura.
i think.
we girls just drank.yeaaahh.

then marina square(i think) again.
decided to postpone my tution.
cos of somebody-.-

then tm.toyrus.
I SAW SPIDDEEYYY.
i want spidey with dimples :D

hot hot hot! :D

how did u end up in that crowd?
Do you see yourself for wat you are?
Try and put aside your history and pride.

when 5 becomes 4.

k blah.bye!(:

Love is when you see the person & you can smile for no reason.
love is when youre thinking of them day&night.
love is when you want the best for them.
love is not about destiny,its about choice.
love is to let go when you have to.

hahaha!
slept at 1 last night cos i talked to milo&isa.
had to talk softly cos of my parents&sister.
&god knows how my sis knew there was isa on the line-.-

kae pape la eyyh.

i miss 2a.
i miss school days.
i miss cam whoring in class with bdg.
even tho we look so slenge
but fuck it.deep down,were cool cool people u kno:D

i miss 1e 2006 too.
i miss the kecoh 1e.
everyone was super duper wild.
yang tak wild jadi wild punn.i miss those days.

i miss those ncdcc activties.
i miss the extremely slacked sjab.

i miss those times wif him.
i miss those times we double-date.
both of you were happy,both of us were happy.
we were happier then,why couldnt it just stay that way?
i miss being loved.i miss loving someone.
(obviously i cant put up pics of me &him.or not i mati oke.)

sometimes i think about the past,
&i wonder why are u always rushing me into stuff.
i jus dont understand you,no ones perfect right?
but without you,i feel lyk a loser without love:'(

i miss the old us,babi gang.
people change fast dont they?
even some,their attitude suck alot now.seriously.

kay enough.
stayed at home the whhole day.
i want to watch enchannted.
someone watch with mee pleeassee?:]

ncdcc today.went to smrt course.lyk f.ing waste time okaay.went to this stupid course at cssp ald.

but but! i saw alif ! not raden alif but, the guy from juying sec :D

hot la ssiihhh!the last time i saw him,
was at the conversion to ncdcc course.
he looks super duper hot wif his perang hair ohke!:D
&&he was the one who sort of liked me last time,
just that i didnt know.wasted-.-

Her feelings she hides. Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind. She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place. She's losing her faith.
Don't know where she belongs,broken inside.
u said u care&ther were still feelings.
but why did you let go so easily?
please be strong, be strong now.

kay im having chalet on he 10th-14th of dec at downtown. 5 days.
come if you want.msn me or msg me for details if you wana come ohke?
&&my mum said,'do whatever u want.i just provide the food & go home.i still have work.'
i dont think she means it.cos most of the time,she dont rly realise what shes taking abt.
seriously.

so anth just contact me ohke? if i know you,then youre invited.
as long as i know that you're coming :D

You Are An Attention Seeker

You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then. You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing. And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement. You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine. You come across as: Friendly and interesting People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are!

funnnyy.
ohke,bye.

i found this theory about 'bitch'.HAHA.damn funny.

bitchs are female dogs.
female dogs bark.
bark comes from a tree.
tree is nature & therefore beautiful

seriously stupid.hahah.

people!go watch cruel intentions 1&2 at youtube.
if you got heart attack or semput dont ohke.
nnt ko mampos high giler abeh takl breathe,abeh mati.
k merepek.

i just talked to this guy named lam or smth.who cares.
he was being a freaking despo.
"u kiyuuut!!i loiikke! nak steadd?"
giler babi.
an example of a fucking ass hole.jerk.
if it was in real life,i think fucking pull his dick off its place ald.
see how desperate guys can be?

AKU DAH TURNED ONN MCM SIAKKK. PASAL SHAS LA SEEYYY.

NC16 aku ingat untuk budak2 nye cerita.

makkkk kooo.

it turned me on mcm giler seyyyhh.kimaakkk!

!#$@

they promise u the world that ure the one for them,
&poof,they just leave you like you dont mean a single shit to them.
f.ing jerks.

irdiane,syir,nurul, me(:

lepak-ed at syir's hse.watched freaky friday. we made each other's make up. ugly bitches:D

cool shit kann kann?look at my eyes! sooo fright:D

ouh i forgot.i broght my dear siter along(: syir said shes cute-.-

okay, i cant seem to get my mind off,

him.

im like blaming myself for evth again.

when its not only my fault.

waddehell is this?!why is it so easy for others,

but me,so difficult. effing loser :D

&i pk2 sampai breakdown.

wek wek!

aku kidnap chipmunk nie:]

ouh,if u can guess who gave it to me,then.good for you :D

i read! :D

Ichabod says:
ur guys all Q R S
Ichabod says:
Qamarul Raden Shahrin
Ichabod says:
LOL
Ichabod says:
ANOTHER GUY WILL BE T

__________

holy shit,but ehh.i realise i only rly rly love one guy(:

middle onee(:

i wana f. die.
if all i do in you peoples life is menyusahkan korang.
then might as well i just kill myself kann?
i wana explore the world,
try out new stuff,cos i dont want to be wasting my life.
14 thisyear,i dont want to be wasting it.
it comes like f.ing once in a lifetime.
&&youre hitting my head lyk im somekind of animal
just cause dad isnt home &hes not here to protect me.
&u say i no respect go shout2 at you.
youre only a few cm away frm me &u started shouting first.
if i no respect for you,i think i kick ur ass balik ald oke.
mothafucka.
now my head hurts like fuck thanks to you.
if my skull is damaged or smth,well thanks.
id rather die than to hear you scream untrue stuff at me.
cause i rly think ure retarded.
why cant i have a normal mum like others?

my head seriously hurts.
things have been like f.ing difficult for me,
&im not strong like i used to be.
cos now,my heart's like in a million pieces.
thanks mum.thanks rad.
my head:(

i dont want to let it lay me down this time.oh god,i just want to let it go.

why cant humans think & try to make things right. & why cant they treasure what they have in the moment. cuz when its gone away, they dont even try to remember the past.

i wish everything could be fine again& the broken will finally mend and the past will slowly b washed away frm our minds.
-irdiaannee

she's so right.gah.guess i shd just try my best to let go.
cos i dont think i can evr be 'friends' with you.
why's evryone expecting so much from me?
you people just think of your own feelings.
&&not others first.why cant you people see others happy?
im tired of putting the blame on myself &hating myself bcos of you.im sick of this.
i cried&cried for you &now,its just a f. waste of my life.

i just want it to be like last time.when we would hang arnd at the playgrnd near ur hse.with ur 'brother'.&ur 'brother' is still happy with her.i can rmbr our joy&laughter.i miss those times,when eveyone was happy(':

headache,eyebags,sore eyes.what next?
&im eating lots of junk food.godamnit.

phone flat.lazy charge.call my home.
ask anyone if you dont know my home phone.

i think my mum's mentally challenged.
someone call the mental hosp if i dont come to sch tmr.k thanks.
bye.

so now it ends.
my worst fear came true?hah.
my heart feels like its being stabbed continuously.
ouch.


i tried&tried, but i guess i have to try harder. pardon me for waiting . maybe smth in me just don't go with you. im sorry i screwed everything up.but how could i hav acted normally after months of not meeting each other? "

so what now?
u smsed me all of a sudden,
saying all those stuff.
did u really mean it?
do u want me back cos u really love me.
or for another reason?
cos if it is for another reason, then forget it.
i dont want to get hurt.
im even afraid to go out with you tmr.
cos what if ehh,u ask me to come,then u say that evth u said was just a fake.
how how?
i dont want to get hurt again.
really.but its like u birthday,
&imreally confused.
i love you.u know i really really really do.
butt,what about you?
:(
arnt i suppose to be happy?

anyway.boyy,happy birthday(:
its tmr but i dont think i'll be posting tmr.so yeah.
&&i love you so much(:

a year 10 months &still counting.they're the ones who held on tight & is always there to catch me when i fall.i would dump my boyf for them,seriously.no matter how much i love him.why do i even fret over a guy who doesnt give a fucking damn bout me when i have my wondeful gfs?him,i can easily find a replacement;them,i cant. i love you guys(:

M,

pls let me go bowling.

madrasah not important,

even you cann educate me at home.

ure wasting my life,

ure wasting my chances to try something new,

LET ME GO LAH FUCK.

k thanks.

efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
ones i and clarence leave sch
;efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
ncdcc will crash and burn
;efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
but remember to set ur priorities
;efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
FAMILY,STUDIES,BGR then ncdcc

LYLY (: says:
i'd dump my boyf for ncdcc(:

efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
kesian ur boyfriend
;efortunc..We trade one villan for another...... says:
tak pasal pasal kener dump

LYLY (: says:
i was just kidding just now
LYLY (: says:
boyf first.
LYLY (: says:
more important than family
LYLY (: says:
(:

game plan was awwweeessoomme! :DD

you're tired of me maki-ing you?
maafkan aku;
i'll puji u everyday ohke?
boy,kamu hot hot seyh(:

you know.i think i totally wasted this year.
results,not as good.
& i totally fucking ruin my relationship with him.
and now im not satisified.
i wish i can turn back time & put the pieces back together.
all bcos of love; i forgot bout studies.
&therefore get unsatisfying grades.
look at those ppl;bcos of their grades,
they can go china trip etc.
look at me;msia msia msia.
mcm ade negeri tu je.
then what do i get now?
nothing.& he doesnt even give a fucking damn.

&all i have now is my gfs & ncdcc?
im gona hold them tight.next year,work harder.

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down,

you kept saying sorry& i was stupid to believe you;

cos u kept repeating those mistakes.

I'd take another chance, take a fall

Take a shot for you

cos I need you like a heart needs a beat

kau berikan aku bahagia;kau berikan aku derita.

i miss you i miss you.
im tired of running after you.
&im wasting my chance to find a new one.
cos evertime i meet somene new,ure the first thing that comes to my mind.
but all i get is nothing but more tears.

kamu ckp saya takut ngan kamu?

saya lari dari kamu pasal saket hati tengok muker kamu la.

sape yang slalu sembunyi& try to avoid nie slalu?

&&what happened to ur promises?

i still have all those long long msgs u sent btw.

u said u would stand by me no mater what.

&dat u wont let go of me?

kelakar seyh(:

sory but i cant help it,

i hate not being able to let go of the past & jus move one.

wey wey,someone kill me uhh.

da lahhh.idk why i mepek-ing bout you in my blog again.

im letting my feelings get the best of me.

suck suck balls.4months seyh.

oke oke.last post ever bout him(:

im gona cry a river tonight.

goodnight(:

Can we bring yesterday back around

Cause I know how I feel about you now

I was dumb

I was wrong

I let you down

But I know how I feel about you now

all that it take's one more chance

don't let our last kiss be our last

give me tonight and I’ll show you

imissyou.

cutted my haiirr.nice nice(: me likeeyyy.
shas house aft collecting results.had lots of funnn<33
ohh.&he wore black cardigan also?
kimak.mcm aku peminat setia dier siot.
eesh.seram nak pakai the black cardigan to skul lagii.