i need sleep,
&i cant decide whether to go countdown at downtown or not.
cos leceh wna ask parents.yahyahh;
good girl per.must ask before i go(:
i'll just ask,my mum's first answer, i just take(:

k byyee.

you say never, i say lie;
you say always i say true;
you say love, i say you.
:D

oh please baby,wounldnt you take my hand; we've got nth else to prove.

i miss those days lahh, ):

im trying my best not to curse & swear,
&its not doing me any good.
.
.
i hate 3D 2008.
&the future 4D 2009.

if moomoo's gna be our future form teacher,(for 2 years)
then i guess i have to close all my piercings.
-.-

fuck la.
oops.sorry syirene.

aku da soft rebond hairrr.
YAYYYEE :D

aku nye phone kene confiscated.
YAYYYE D:

giler babi, nvm.
look on the bright side lyana(:
people,anth msn me. or call my hse no kay.
dont have,ask arnd.

bye(:

i swear elizabeth yong is so very irritating.

one thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind(:

training training training.

damn penat giler oke.
kay.
kay.
kay.

&i still have to d the 3 erp tasks,
&i wana read trough at LEAST,3 chapters of geog and social studies.
kay good lyana.

i wna softbond my hair by this week(:(:
yaye.
k adios.
(:

OHOH.DID I MENTION,
I GOT MY LCP AND CPL RANKS ALD:D
k whatever. swear no one cares-.-
bye.

pantat merah,
oh no,u dont have any pantat.
main pun rambut mcm kuda sewel mane.
eee-yohhh.
aku leh muntah darah la sial,

"hello?ah."
*talktalk to friend*
"hello?umm."
*talktalk to friend"
"hello?yaa."

and sooo the cycle continues over the phone.
damn menyampah,



VERY.

k blabla.
today,had training.i was the only girl so yeah.
like fuck uh.they bullied me the whole while.
danial is a pain in the ass.
did footdrill silver,

then went to makan at simpang bedok,
they were talking bout me.fuckersss.
they were saying how stupid i can be,
cos i jatuhkan beret in front of civil defence officers,
go die lahhh.terjatuhkan, -.-

k then met milo and eliz a vybes,bedok.
milo rebond fringe.
then penin,anddd then sent my skirt for altering,
then coffee bean(:
sat arnd.

&&saw cd officers!
i didnt realise was staring okee.
then they were like staing back and according to milo,
pointing at us.
-.-

whatever.
parade rehearsel tmr!
byyye!
(:

k happy christmas to those who are celebratng,
okaaaaaaay.

ncdcc suck.
nvm.lyana,think of the rank,sergeant.
thinkthink.

k.i'll polish my boots like hell today
&starch my uniform.
the whollle day.

tmr,rescue &campcraft theory.and silver footdrill.
oh need to study also.
damn -_____-


shit ah.ape nye christmas ni.

pictures pictures.enjoy.

my hair like shiittt,rainrain.i wna rebondd.
bus 2,

playgrnd,isa capp.heh.

OH OH.PEOPLE. LOOK HOW SEWEL MILO CAN BE.

&she calls me sewel -.- milomilo,

OBSERVE tHE PICTURE. AHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

&&SHE PUT THAT ON HER FRENSTER-.-

oh &look at me & milo's nickname:
irdiane. BOSS SAYURSOTONG ROX LAH SEH. says:
LYLY:] BOSS BEAN GEREK LA SEY. says:
we seriously have nth better to do; -.-

i have a sudden urge to blog abt how i feel this year,
cos next week is gna be hectic.
and the following week school's reopening.gah.

i really miss last year,
oh godd,if only i hav a freakng time machine or smth.

why do people have to change?
yeah.were humans & were imperfect.
&people change.
but not for the worst! wtfh is happeninng.

friends come &go.true frens stay.
in this real world,ther is no such thing as godsiblings.
god,i hate that stupid idea.
please! even an extremely close pair of frens wont call each other 'adek' or anth.
but deep down,they love one another just like real sisters.
if u dont get what i mean, then whatever uh
-.-

&ive been thinking bout this problem that has been playing arnd in my head.
oh &i suggest anyone who's reading this,dont ask anth bout it yeah?(:

relatonship?
i really dont think i wna be i one.staying single is the best solution right?
i cant possibly cheat my feelings.
its rly dumb to be in one when u kno u wont get along well wif him/her.

&of course,being in a relationship now is temporary,
and most proly,u'll do like stuff wif them.
& thats reaaaaal bad.but what do we care right?

im not listening to anyone.so stop saying i am.
cos im doing what my heart&brain think is best for me.

&yeah,i guess i owe my parents alot.
i wna study hard first,and concentrate on ncdcc.
then, i can have fun.

this year, i think i was too distracted by my break up and evth.
and i was just being immature and emotional.
yeah,he was everyting a guy could be.many girls saying his damn kind and all.
but guess we werent meant to be.smth just went wrong,
but oh well,i shdnt be regretting now.just move onn(:
guys arent evth right?:/ go get married first lyanaaa(:

k i feel better.at least im not so confused anymore rigght,
next year,
ncdcc&studies.

you made me what i am today.all those tears i cried, it just made me stronger.you taught me how to appreciate what i have before they're gone.no one gets me the way you do.cos so far,youre the only one that can make my face go red in a sec.i hav no f.ing idea why.but i guess its just better this way.&youre on my heart just like a tattoo.150407(:

cos i dont cry on the outside anymore;

k bbq ytd.

rainrain; at qianning's hse.
only like, me,milo,eliz,meryl,isa &rad came.
so went to bugis first,
we were like screaming mcm org giler cos the floor was super wet,
&kiter bodo2 gi pakai slipper.

k then 2-ed to qianning's.
then to adam's hse.
omf! his eyess! i felt like squeezing his fats off him!
yaaakk!

k blabla..rad&isa came.
went to qianing hse.dorg awak beer evth then kene mara-.-
kann kann kann>:(
so went to seat at carpark floor;
went up again.
then tengok the eye2.

lalalalalalala.
then it was ald like 11?
eliz went home,we went 7eleven.
thennnnnnn.i went to sleep at adam hse wif meryl&miloo.
(:

we didnt really sleep tho.
ate ate ate.gossip gossip gossip.friendster friendster friendster.

oh oh! friendster!
hahahahahaha.we were lauging like shit at this someone's pictures.
that green striped man ytd.ahahahaha.
k ssh.

ohhh.i deleted the previous post,the last para.
sorry la oke.i ikutkan hati too much.
-.-

k dah.byye.

fuckfuck.

now no adults' gna hav trust in me.suck laa.
shd hav charged my phone;
why am i always lazy to charge my phone?
cos im stupid,z.

now my phone got coniscated.
but i took the simcard;
gah.ass laa.im gna die soon,really.

just hope i can go to the bbq.
plsplsplsplspls.
):

i miss my kawan2:(

people,listen to the song playing now kaes,
blabla

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up &find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you,didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

k back from msia.went to johor onlyy.
sucksuck.rained most of the time.
but who cares,
we were shopping in buildings all the while.
(:

i bought mango skinnieees!
huge sale ther. like omgawd laaa.
hee(:

k then more more shopping.bought new headsets;
for mp3 and phone,
forgot what else i bought.
lots of acessories,
blablabla.

cant even go swimming okaay.
ohoh.
the hotel,thers this cutecute waiter.
ooh(:

i'll update the pics later,
at grandma's hse nw.
k byeee
i miss my kawan2
:(

kayyyy.so on saurday night;
watced alvin and the chipmunkks with familly.
late night time slot.coool.
(:

THEODORE'S PANTAT IS LIKE SERIOUSLY EFFING CUTE OKE.
LOVELOVELOVE!:D
SEE HW CHIPMUNKS CAN BE EXTREMELY HOT&CUTE?HAHHA.

k merepek,

then sunday went shoppin with mum&adek,
i bought a roxy wallet!
mum was like 'choose.'
so i choose uh.check2 price all.
chose a nice one bt mahal.so chose a cheaper one.
but mum was like 'no diff what the price.take the mahal one la.'
O.O :DDDDD

k then bot many acessories.

today,went out wf milo syir eliz qianning.
parkway first.they ate.
me and milo bot tank tops.
i got my blue sleeveless! while milo, black i think;

then off to bugis.walkwalk.all the bag so common.
went separate ways wif eliz&qianning.

milo syir &me went to far east,
the bag shop we wanted da close,

then went to cineleisure.
walkwalk.not many choices.

bag designers!ure not fucking doing ur job okaay-.-

end up,buying the common haversack bagg,
me&milo black.syir brown.
we're gna customize it! :D

famous amos.,
sawsaw ms alsagoff!(ms, mrs? &however u spell her name-.-)
went home at 5.
and off to tution.

msia tmr.MAYBE.
stupid clouds.go rain somewhere else can-.-
lazy to upload pics.z.

i dont wna be in love.really.

sometimes goodbye's the only way..

isa's bag-.- he forced me to wear!hahaha.kidding.

k wtfh.,
im so scared next year
im scared i cant cope with all the subjects.

&&fawwaz is like scaring me bout the ncd position thingy.
im dead meat.

love;when you keep looking for better ones,

but when later you realise, you have already missed the person

oh oh .theres so much to blg bout the chalet.
but i wont blog bout it cos my mind's in a mess.

lucky i have a blog wher i can like rant all my problems here.
gah.

i hate wher this is going.
fullstop.

get wht im trying to say?
hmm,i dont think so .
haha.loser.

ohh.&frens,sorry i left u or a freaking hour for a guy.
so so sorry.
&& to isa &rad, on behalf of ilyas,
sorry we cant make it that night.
makciks &pakciks are pain in the ass.
thanks for treating him baik2 tho(:

andand.thanks for layaning the kids with the balloons rad.

haahhaha.k i shall stfu-.-

i dont understand these people.
why is everyone changing?
aku menyampah tengok muker ko,
ko jgn nak step minahrep mane la okee.
ish.follow what suites u best kay?&also,what suits ur family best too.

why am i always faking that im okay when im not.
stop pretending that ure strong lyana,
cos ure just killing urself slowly.

keluhan hatiku, tiada siapa yang tahu,

____________________________
*edited*
PICTURES!

2 in the morning(:

okaaay,
the wireless is like rly fucked up.

details bout chalet.sms/call me.

went to bugis at afternoon.
blablabla.
kfc and the home wif diann.

then at night,went to cheers wif cuzzies.
annnd my adek jatuhkan snapple bottle
&she got a deep cut.
lyk f.ing hell laaa,i got scolded from mum,
she went home,and i broke down in frnt of cuzies.
mcm siakk oke.k whatever.

then went to pasir ris beach at 12.
went home at 2.
oke,a dog was like barking at us when we were near the swamp.
scary oke.

k blah.bye.

K IM AT MY CHALET.
GOT WIRELESS LA SEYYY.
COOL SHIT YOO.HAHAHA(:(:

ohh people wnacome,come on thursday kayy.
be at my chalet by 1pm if u wna go www.
thenn if u wna come bbq, come at 7pmm kayy.

whatever it is,sms/call me kay.

btw,maybe during the bbq thers a 1e bbq gathering.
1e2006 ppl, come if u wna come kayy.
ure invited if u kno i dont dislike u.
cos u'll just get left out.HAHAH
k thats stupid.
but u get what i meann.
(:

k byeee.

just helped paint the hall green(:

nice la okee.
so so tmr chalet:D

kay kawan2.
if you know i dont silike you or anth
in other words, youre someone i dont dislike,
u can come oke.if u wna come.
come on thursdayy.
anth sms or call me(:
cos im lazy to sms invitations-.-

booom.syir went kl without telling us-.-
&&myra's back with shard.
good luck to you dearr(:

caught golden compass with family todaay.
gerek saakkkk.
must watch k people!
but in the end,its quite disappointing cos the story is like to be continued
-.-

i wna be the witch frm dat story;
the costume she wear mcm cantik gitu.
&&the witch pretty la sihhh(:

i miss my kawan2.

syirenee.wher are you?
u forgot us or smth?
we miss u loads la oke):
i kno we've been mixing wif ppl u dont like.
but if u get to kno them better,u'll find them okayy.
&myraaa.bapak kau ehh>:(
ish.

k i miss loads of people.

OH.&TO THAT PERSON.HOW COME U CAN TERASA FROM WHAT I WROTE AT MY INTRO BOX THER?I WAS BEING RANDOM LA OKE! UNLESS U GUILTY LA SEYY.(:(:

2 days to chalet.
wooh(:

titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi;
pernahkah kau peduli tentang diriku ini?

kay,i just pukul my adek lyk hell.

k dont get the wrng idea.i didnt abuse her.
she was in the toilet for half an hour,
&check2, she tenga main sabun;srubbing the floor.
stupid ass.

yayyye.pizza for lunch.
again.
so far this week,i had like, 8 slices of regular.
&&3of the extra large.
im gna be fat fatfat.hahahahaha.
not my fault,i hav a big appetite:D

ppl like you not worth my atteniton(:(:
&u jusst started a fire by stating that stupid fact.
heh.like shas said.
fight fire with fire.

k madrasa later.
can meet spidey wannabe:DD
hot hot heaaat!

dont trust his words, trust his heart.
action speaks louder than words.
(:

sis kesayanga kuuuu:DD love love kamuuu:DD

omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg omfg.

poeple.dont go school website.
seriously./

i love my blogg.
ive been blogging everyday,dont ask why.
i likelike.
i love my life:)

k loser.

k i miss myra &syir. where'd they go?
&&i just smsd myraa.
myra:ko da stead ngan ___?
me:tak lah! aku stead aku bilang the whole world laa! hahaha

next week,chalet chalet chalet chalet chalet!
(:
the week aft nxt week, msia msia msia msia msia!
then the week aft that,training-hw-training-hw-training.
k aku da merepek boring giler.

&im effing sick.suck suck suck.
i wana do erp task. k bye

evth's gona be alright..

i hate it when i say sorry for disturbing in an sms,

&that person will insist that im not disturbing.

but makes me wait for his sms like sssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking loooooooooonggg.

irritating shit.

k i tot i would be in big trouble.

cos i went to ecp.

&i seriously forgot bro had tution at 6.

soo,at 6 then i left ecp.cos isa was like jap jap jap>:(

&then.i cabbed home cos dad was calling alot&alot& extremely alot of times.

my sis was sleeping.so my abng just left for tution.
went home,&got ready for ibu to balik.

siap sedia utk dibedal puas2.

buut but.bro came home &said tution cancelled.

like PUKIMAAK.!#$^*()

taxi fare was a f.ing 10bucks.stupid shit/.

when i grow up &become president,i'll make taxi rides free.

&apeks will be taxi drivers,which is considered slaves in spore.HAHA

k whatever.merepek.

k i swear im very very angry while talking to milo now.

but she doesnt know.

-.-

GAH.ASS HOLE TALKTALK PUT DOWWN.

i feel super left out.im like missing out on fun!

i dont like feeling alone.

esp if when ur like on the line wif them,
&dorang kecoh2 having fun,

&ure at home,staring at the com screen and holding the phone like a fucking idiot.

seriously,i hate this feeling so much.

lagi2 those ppl are all those ure close to.

i dont know wat im feeling.,

mostly sad, a little happy.

&everyone's like having funn &i hav to just stfu;

cos i dont wana ruin their fun.

why do i feel down whenever everyone's super effing busy.

whaat?god help me,seriously.i need someone to guide me &make me feel secured.

wtfh am i talking.

bye.

im very very very hungry.

&right noww.that person i guess,
is still sleeping.&that person ckp nak brakfast wimme-.-

GAH.I NAK MAKAAANNNN.

oh, &to him.sorry i tetido ytd okee :(
-.-

i rly need a holiday.k bye.



your kisses are wasted on me,hah.

changed my blogskin.again

blaaaah.its pourinnngg.
lyk the whole day-.-

gahh.i feel super duper cold.
&i still havent bathed.

I wake up in the morning
Remember that you're gone
I wondered where the
sun went
The rain is falling now

And I'm awake on this
Rainy day
and I'm
Watching as my tears fall down the window pane
Yeah Yeah
Didn't I baby
Treat you right?
And I watch the rain it makes us pure
again
yeah yeah yeah yeah

I tried to come and see you
But you
wont let me in
I know we've had our moments
But can we start again?

Cuz I'm awake on this
Rainy day and I'm
Watching as my tears
fall down the window pane
Yeah yeah
Didn't I baby
Treat you right?
And I watch the rain it makes us pure again
yeah yeah yeah

And
tell me how I'm gonna live without you
Feel like my world is falling apart
I watch the rain
Falling again
Wash away
Wash away

I'm
awake on this
Rainy day and I'm
Watching as my tears fall down the
window pane
Yeah yeah
Didn't I baby
Treat you right?
And I watch
the rain it makes us pure again
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

k whatever.that song is in my heeadd.
gah.

i had my nails painted pinnnkkk.
:D

that voice is like replaying over & over in my head.
oh that scene also.

oh god.it hurts just to see.
whats happening to the world?
kae,im not gna eloborate further.

my head hurts like hell oke.
crashed at 12.&i had only lyk 4hrs of sleep last night.
cried myself to sleep.imagine how long i cried.hahaha
k whatever.lucky khairah&matthias were ther to support us.

tell me how im suppose to trust guys when you yourself lyk this?

somethings are better left unsaid.
so im just gona shut the f.ing hell up.

i hate drunk people.i hate.

cos they dont know wtf they're doing.

take away the hurt,
take away the pain.

(-efortunc-) says:
then later the firemen come
(-efortunc-) says:
carry u

LYLY :] says:
YAY
LYLY :] says:
OMGOSH.I CANT WAIT.
LYLY :] says:
:D

(-efortunc-) says:
NO CHANCE LA

LYLY :] says:
I VOLUNTEER FIRST!

HAHA.
BUDAK CD! CARRY MEEEE! touch toucchh!
hahahhaha. kay kidding.
CCA DAY. CANNT WAIITT LA SEYY :D

i am so fucking tired.
cos i think,when i take in too much cigg asap,i'll feel tired.
i think i breathe in too much smoke ald-.-

k whatever.

went to ngaji in the morning.
kay i didnt.i ponteng and went to macs to eat.
jalan2.

&&went to a bookshop.
i found this book named 'how to be a sexy bitch'.
HAHA.k won tell u what it contains.
&also this book 'life as a poser'
i shall give it to my frens as her bdae prezzie(:
loser.

then isap isap.
woops.cuzzie isap((:

my phone batt flat.
cos ive been sooo lazy to charge my phone.

k blah.reached home.
tak sempat charge phone for long,isa ajak go ecp.
surprisingly,my mak let. wooh.

so i was kind of an hour late.not my fault.
i stay far & he ajak lambat.

went to bedok inter &mt up wif isa& rad.
bused ther.
they ate a macs. i didnt rly eat.
scroll up.i ate macs earlier .

then bla bla bla.
they started shooting ice pieces with the straw thingy.
&making loud popping sounds by breaking the straw.
-.-

walked ard & sat at the sand.
their fren came & we went to seat at macs.

oh i saw PIE IRDIANA!
isaping & wore all black.eww.poserrrrr

k then their other frens came.
they went to play snooker.
&i went home.

k im not sure if i can go tmr's bbq thingy,
blah.

im happyyyyy
((:(:(:(:


I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse

can evth just stay this way?