i cant take this. why cant i open my heart to some other guy? it sucks loving you. how many times hav i said that? whats with me lately. moodswings? wtf uh. i hate myself. i regret falling for you dude. "i am so honored" that was wad he said when i was crushing on him last time. &those false promises. i dont kno what im gna do. stay single? but i get jealous of people who are attached. fuck la oke. i miss u badly. &they told me to just pretend i dont kno u? tell me how. i get rly red whenever i see u. fuck shit.

&i cant control my emotions after dnt just now. seriously. otw home in the bus, i just brokedown. fetched sister &i just couldnt help it? listened to those screamo and techno songs all the way. &it wasnt any help at all.made me even more upset. whats happening to me. &now im having foodswings. lucky i cant get fat easily. god, i all i can do now is pray he do well for his Os and happiness with any girl he wants. the thought of it just hurts. oke nvm.

from today, i'll try to pretend i dont kno him. k cool.
i dont think i wna blog animore. i wont delete my blog. but yeah, enjoy whats left of it. &my past.
i'll update if i really really really want to.

wansuay sayo. sayonara(: