everyone's busy wif their own love,
&wah , im the only single one in my 3d clique.
oh how great.

didn't pay attention to lessons the whole day.
i cant. my mind was always somewher else.

hey dude , you've got me thinking. so much.
i dont mind waiting.

&i wonder; if ure just pretending &faking evth u said, again.
cos maybe, u wana get me totally off ur back?

cant find the right person to talk to bout hw i feel right nw.
everyone's busy wif their own probs i guess.
so i'll just talk to my damn blog. &keep evth inside. &die.

my mind's messed up. sometimes it's jus hard to let go, even tho u've tried again and again &with ur heart &soul; he just remains in ur heart like a tattoo that cant be removed &yeah, it hurts at times, &it sucks.
tears run dwn like razorblades,

oh fuck. my face looks fat. eh no. it is fat. cb.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaye.
guess all my doubts are answered.
&i prefer my life to be this way(:

went out to study. yeah, a little -_-
okaye. everything will be alright.
but it wont last . zoom.

oh shit. dnt until 6 tmr. ahh, damnit.

wah sey. idk why. but im angry wif that person.
whos the motherfucker now uh?


i dont kno what to say. i.need.someone.to.talk.to.damn.
oke, i dont think anyone understands this post. wdv, goodbye (:

a conversation wif some unknown dude. rly stupid. HAHA.

apek_kecik_92@hotmail.com : ahkx. . Cn i ask u y0ur num?
apek_kecik_92@hotmail.com : mat gler tr0z hlng.
[b]LYLY ;[/b] its the way he makes u fall in love . : um takde hp. ilang uh.

apek_kecik_92 : 0hkaex. . Tkpek. . U tngl mnek ahkx?
[b]LYLY ;[/b] its the way he makes u fall in love .
huh?
apek_kecik_92 : u tingl mne?
[b]LYLY ;[/b] its the way he makes u fall in love .:tampines.

HAHA. YAYE. I ROCK.

and izzah is turning into a lesbian .
she loves me (:

im missing u when im not suppose to .
thought my feelings faded away, but guess im wrong.
&looking at his picture jus makes me so, geram asdaf.
but at th same time, weak?
&great. im missing him too. as a fren.
shall not regret rejecting love.
cos it was waht i wanted right?
&yeah, guess i jus wanted what's best fr me.

boohoo.
i am not suppose to feel this way fr the both of u.
this succkks.

so disappointing of waht uve become.

cool kannnn ?!
a fire fighter helped me put it on. how great is that? :D

cd is the best part of my dayy.

did 5ton mechanical jack.

partnered wif danial piperddyyy. hahaha.

&sgt faisal said he thinks im the guy &danials' the girl.

cos i carried the jack to the so called emergency place.

&so on. while danial helped to make it stable only bcos of his 'injured' finger.

aku stronng! :D

&i stole smth frm fawwaz's phone. ssh. dont tell him okaye? (:

aniway, dont come spamming at people's blog uh.

u can always talk to me face to face(:

it'd be easier that way.

&ure asking me to get a life? reflect on urself first(:

if my posts are affecting u in a way, dont read then.

my blog. dont like stfu.

How does it feel when you kiss , when you know that I trust you?

i saw so many kucings today-.-

muscle aches hurt badly today. cant even bend my knees.
or laugh. garr .
aku pot, ko kettle ? that is so lame oke.
dah, i dont bother to even try fighting fr my case anymore.
cant be bothered &thers so many things on my mind ald.

cd cd officers comiing. ho ho ho.
april is comiingg , oh waht happened in april last year?
o.o

poeple arnd me are rly testing my patience.
and great, im having menses.
mum's in a good mood, but she pushing my head wif her finger,
cos she read my convo wif syir, and she said smth bout love. which is love cupcakes-.-

& hello asshole.
u kno what i've been thru in my fucking life.
the least u could do is be truthful to me.
if im who u REALLY want.
not being able to trust easily, it sucks u kno?

again &again &again.
wtf u people think i am?
k dah. i cant take this. lets pon skul tmr. my head hurts lyk fuck.
mcm nak explode-.-

lyly, stop pretending that ure okay. cos someday, i think i'll just burst.
k doesnt make sense.

moodswings suck . &im having muscle aches at my thighs.
thanks to th broadjumps. however u spell it.
&i swear. i wna kill fawwaz. takpe. cd officers coming this friday.
smth to look forward to .

ur love is just a lie.

its the way that he makes you cry
its the way that he kisses you ;
its the way that he makes you fall in love .


oh what a dreadful day .
slowly, im losing trust on everyone. great. just great.
listen to the song people.


Pretty girl is suffering,
while he confesses everything .
&that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head



bunga nie muker steam ~

call it karma ?

blame it on the weather, but i'm a mess
and this february darkness has me hating everyone
and i know i need your comfort, but this drama makes me sick
and the longer i lay here, i know it's harder to get up
without you

goodbye old friend
goodbye goodnight
i'll move on
you'll call it fate, i'll call it karma
we had our time, it was fun
while it lasted

i'll look back, with honor
and no regrets
i won't be mad, won't feel bad
these memories will never leave me
don't be sad
cause life goes on, life goes on
it's getting too late
tomorrow is here

was searching fr songs, but saw smth else.
sorry i intruded into ur privacy. but yeah.

curiosity killed the cat. aww .
im superwomen, ill stay strong.
dont worry girl, evth will be alright ; im alright (:

heh. imissyou love.

NANA MILOO !
omg. ive been too busy these days.
ncdcc, sayo , and classes.
&ure gg home early or having classes &u rarely go online!
yess. we havent been hanging out often these days,
&imyy.
i'll try to make time fr uu alright.
life's just complicated nw. heh.
aniway, ur hothot shawty is not hot animoree(:
hotter guys out ther, so move onn too yeah ?(:

k & to that person. i dont know what more u want fr me. the least u could do is show me u REALLY mean waht u said. i mean the world to u? it looks lyk someone else means the world to u . i dont kno whats gg on , but i sense smth fishy. i dont want sweet words frm u, just actions. u kno the condition im in right nw, confused and all. u shd at least be giving me time to settle down and pick myself up, back together. u think i dont aprreciate wad u do fr me, but yeah. i do. &so, if u cant wait, then i guess u dont rly mean whatever u said right.

ive had enough of guys playing wif me.
i swear, if this happens to me again, i'll screw him upside down.

hello.
im reading the history of my msn conversation wif someone.
&the feeling suck.
you knew i dont trust guys. yet, u had to be some mf.
& fake evth, &make evth up.
rmbr when u said 'be with someone because u love him not bcos of anything else?'
lol. &when u said u rly missed me.
HAHAH-_-

HOHO . i knew frm the start u hated me. oh i hate u too bitch .
ure the one staring at me &teling ur frens abt me in the first place.
what? u jealous uh i had smth u want ?
cemburu tak tentu pasal .

okayye. this post is so, straight forward?
i'll grow a new kebun someday. sayonara.


But right now all I feel is the pain of fighting starting up again.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ELIZ ! STAY CUTE UH OKE (:
lovelove (:

wth . i asked fawwaz fr help in d&T.
then skali talktalk, end up he lecture me.
saying dont do things that i will regret.
sec3 pass very fast, so ive got to change.
and change those bad habits of mine.

yeahh. guess so uh.

TURN over a new leaf (:
im gna quit. maybe?
&im gna move on . without love fr any guy.
cos i wont forget the past,
ure a motherfucker, but i cant seem to hate you.
cos u'll always be th one.

dude, guess I was wrong ;
but hey, ur love is the sweetest sin .

srsly not in the right state of mind.
thanks gfs fr making me feel better today.
came school wif retarded &swollen eyes.
dnt was until 6. then went to lepak wif wenjia meryl &melo .

oh god. im sick of this. why the fuck must u make me love? dude, stop thinking of other people first. uve always been doing that. isnt it time to think fr urself nw? &ure forever giving up on me. am i that difficult? gah. &mum's being a total ass these days. cant seem to think straight. oke, i miss u dude.

i have smth to say . but idk what.
i'll just stfu &keep it inside &let myself die slowly.
wooh. godamnit, fuck love uhh .

it has always been abt u .

BUNGAAAA ! :D

HEY HO (:

ytd, went to plaza singapura ther.
with meryl, bedah, nana, hazwan, hakim, fakhri, akhbar, khai.
watched the danceworks ther.
hot hot heaaat! ~


then watched step up at cathay.
HOT DANCE MOVESS UHH SEY.
hot hot dude &dudettes in the movie also :D
i was sitting at the centre between khai &meryyl . so i wasnt loneelyyy.
hahahaa. so, me&meryl was giggling during the kissing part. heeehaww(:
bet khai was irritated uh . hahaha.

milo went home.
then went to bedok to slack.
khai met his brothers. we temaned.
&he sent each of us to our bus stops.
aww. thanks khaii (:

KHAI NYE SHADES MCM ROBOCOP PUNYAA ! HAHAHA.

changing room ! (:

aku love this bitch ! lovelove.

We were cool back in school. I really liked you,must have been your attitude.
That’s why you keep on runnin in and out of my mind.
As the years they’ll roll by, baby, now I know whyI keep comin back to you(:

i feel so lonely, im waiting fr you.
but nothing ever happens.
&i wonderr.
...

out to bedok later to parttyyy yaww.
-_- okaye. goodbye.

(-efortunc-) says:
cause my sec 1s shld not bond wif the sec 2s
the sec 2s........can just grow up and die for all i care
dun be un friendly
from next wedsday onwards
i shall grant you corprals to pump them

LYLY ; ku sungguh masih syg padamu (: says:
YES AHH.
LYLY ; ku sungguh masih syg padamu (: says:
HAHAHA.


get ready u stupid pain in the ass, ass holes.

i am dying. imysm, love.

cd bonding day is tiring.
had to carry evth up aft classes. everyone had classes &i was alone . pfft.
then helped ms foong cook.
danial kept pointing the knife at me saying 'take off ur clothes or i'll kill you.'
horny bastard .
then got locked up with guys in the cd room . bastards uh -_-
aku masih virgin bodooh.

shouted &cursed at the cadets alot. got fucking pissed.
rawr. sorry, but im a little vulgar. oops.

bbq. went home with myra, mat imran, aaron, huda, radin.
cari hantu. oke sounds wrong. HAHA.
k shush.

i didnt get to meet bedah &khai today, so,
HAPPY 16TH ZUBAIDAH.
HAPPY 15TH KHAIRIL.
<3

love, i miss you so.

i wanna buy this dresss (:
Aku sungguh, masih sayang padamu ;

ytd. i cleaned up cd room.
i swear if smth is wrong in ther, i'll chop fawwaz's head.

then fareez blanja us pizza hut ! fr bedah's bdae. omg thanks la sey! haha.
then went parkway to find presents.
then simpang, bought stuff &teman khai, hakim, akhbar, hazwan &fakhri to eat.
then slacked wif meryl khai &hakim fr a while.

headed to bugis. bought new haversacks. my present bag nw is retarded. pfft.
k so went back to meryl's. in the train, meryl made a fool out of herself (:
hahaha. oke, wdv. got damn high aft that.

went ntuc to buy food supplies.
i have no fucking idea, why meryl wanted to buy alot of sayurs (brocolli & cabbage)
gialgila. i started calling the brocolli evil ? remember powerpuff girls ? (: hee.
we cursed each other to fall cos of our slippery shoes. meryl kept on clapping. retard.

at her hm, went to bathe and slacked outside her condo ther.
(fck. i kno im a bitch to u. im sorry. pls dont hate me.)
then someone invited us to go out wif his family.
went labrador park? however its spelt.
ateate. went back at meryl's at 2. climbed the traingle pyramid thing, &poooof. (:
i swear we were too tired we made super lame jokes.

went up, we had to settle some work while watching step upp (: but meryl fell asleep-_-
slept at lyk 4 gg to 5 and headed fr skul at 8(:

MERYYLL. THANKS FR LETTING ME STAY AT UR HSE OKE. SORRY IF I TROUBLED U ALOT, COS I KNO I DID. ONCE AGAIN, SORRY (:

okaye. ther was an accident at the highway in frnt of my hse.
about 6 cd vehicles came? FUCKINGG HOT.
NOT THE VEHICLES :D
oke, im so mean. the people who died so kesian..
huhu. ohoh! bapak iliya paramedic!
DAMN COOL LAH SEY :D

LAT BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY ADV BDAE BEDAHH. LYLY SYG KAMU (:

okaye. im so sleepy .goodnight (:

There's got to be a million reasons why it’s you.

HELLOOOO .
IM AT MERYL'S.
&SHES FUCKING ME .
YAYYE (:

oke, i'll blog abt today later or next timee. wooh.

LALALA.
whats this abt bitching here &there?
its okay to bitch .
&dont say u dont bitch about ur friends/ enemies,
cos EVERYONE DOES THAT.
its normal these days.
so dont be a hypocrite people.
u can bitch abt someone, some other ppl can bitch abt u(:
so just shut up if people bitch abt u aites. unless its untrue, thats a diff story.
oke, im so irritated.
i hav no idea why. i wouldnt be surprise if she were to become the next 'her',
&go aagainst us next time. oh well.
&she can say i will probably be the next 'her' cos she thought i was changing in a bad way.
hey, look who's defending who now.

evryone's a hypocrite. so, i cant help it. heh.
ho ho ho .

read this peoopllee (:

[b]LYLY:][/b] imyimy:
(oops!) muker sememek sia .
[b]LYLY:][/b] imyimy:
mcm kopet. tak mandi. serious siaa.
[b]LYLY:][/b] imyimy:
oke im so mean . wth is wrong wif me. HE IS HOT HOT HOT.

NANA KAMATO:
0_0 lyaan remember u used to say that shahrin is hot
NANA KAMATO:
SO ITS THE SAME
NANA KAMATO:
u now think (oops!) is hotttt.
NANA KAMATO:
skali wen u move on,
NANA KAMATO:
LIKE PAK SAYOR SIA THE FACE

HAHA. SHAHRIN, IF U'RE READING THIS, NO OFFENCE OKE.

oh &since she labelled me as 'that girl out there', i'll do the same.
to that girl out there, im sorry, but. nahh. i dont wna take him (:

PARENTS GOING OVERSEAS TMR.
ITS GOING AS PLANNED. I'LL BE SEEING MERYL THE WHOLE DAY TMR.
COOLIOS (:

i found this;
We come t0 love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning t0 see an imperfect person perfectly (:

i wish i can spend the hols with that person.
misses ;

i cry, i cry. just wna crawl into my bed, &throw the life i led.
my head hurts .

fuck u la bitch ,
what. bcos of my bro, u think im the same as him ?
hell no. &nw what. ure pushing all the hsework to me.
while u make him study &go to tution the whole day .
woke up, &u made me do hsechores straight away,
&u expect me to take care of my sister, feed her, teach her.
while u, only cook? tell me again, how old is nurul?
stop pampering her, shes ald 8. has hands&legs &brain to think .
&i hav to ans the phone and evth.
what, i dont need to study? i dont need to enjoy my hols?
im suppose to be at town nw wif gfs. but nooo .
siblings &mum are being so f.ed up.

&nw, thers alot of this sellers selling keropok. fucking irritating.
&my mum expects me to attend to them.
wdv uh. i wna complete all my hw.

my eyes are quite swollen ?
where the fuck did i go wrong that i deserve all these shit. life's so unfair;
DUDE, I MISS U LIKE FUCKING HELL ALOT. nyah; hate this.

i feel so scared right now.
bro got caught smoking in school?
dah slenge buat hal slenge uh oke. wtf uh .
sooon after he comes home later, bang boom.
piak here &there. mum will bring me in the story without any effing reason .
she will ungkit yang dah lepas. oh god.
i cnt stand her voice uh oke.
oke prepare.

today damn paiseh. shall not say why here. sriously stupid uh. had to go thru all that to buy nana's sushi. pfft. i blushed alot today . fucking iliya&edwin. &nana bitchh! meryl bitchhh! rawr. i'll get u guys fr that.

no matter how hard i try to work smth out, these people will bring me down again &again.

jordin sparks feat chris brown- no air. go listen (:

chris brown hot(: tapi aku tak suke mamaa :(

how do you expect me to live alone with just me.
Cause my world revolves around you
its so hard for me to breathe;

no matter what people say, i jus wont listen wont i?

face it lyana. he wont ever.

ive been pulling my fringe back these days -_- i look fuggly.
&i went arnd wearing a gold ribbon at my hand. cool ehh (:

i swear today, my poses are sooo stupid. but wdv (:

fucking act big losers.
sriously pissed me off a little today. kay wdv.
played hide &seek wif cd today. juniors find ncos.
funaaayy. hide in the hosereel cupboard thing. u kno ppl can lyk fuck in there?
cool rigght (: heh. but its lyk damn hot. dani kenee rappee ! heh.

CD HOT(:

okaye. i cant wait fr cd bonding day.
cant wait fr march hols. ciaos.

I'll keep you locked in my head. -my darling, imy.

_______________________

I REALISED THAT SOMEONE, POSTED PREVIOUSLY.
i swear im gna kill nana tmr.
da lah ckp psl bean-_- sayoo is nice uh okaye (:
love u too babe (:

Gosh! Gosh. gosh. goshes!

Im so blind!

Sayo, U SUCKSXZZX.
u FUCKZXZXZ UPP MY LIFE!
do you know or NOT!?
if you dont then
go and eat up yourself veggie!
blardy beans! ......... .. . .

i wuv indra , my shawty bow wow ! :D
HEARTS ALL OVER THE WORLD TONIGHT LA SEH!

not like u !! :(

hmpfhhh !




dont cry lyana!
dont cry!
i love u baby!


:)

fck uh.
just the first term &im getting f9 fr amaths?
butt A1 fr emaths ! (:
okaye. but wdv. im failing many subjects.
and SALMAH, isnt helping me by giving me an A1 fr malay.
that stupid projek pancaran is ridiculouss oke. pfft.

nyahh. &march hols is coming. &that lembu occupied my whole week, except friday, for her stupid eng enrichments. merepek uhh.
plus maths supplementary classes which clashes with cd bonding day &the dance camp.
asdasf. make holiday fr whaat ! please uh, its just the first term.
pooof.

aniway, i saw cd mats playing soccer at the fire stn. fuckkiingg HOT .
heehaww. oke, goodbye.

i'll cherish our last kiss, until we meet again ; imy.

hello there.

im posting for the sake of meryl. so oke.
all i can say today is after corriculum(?) hrs was the besst.
spent time wif girlfys. slacked in cd room.
&i made a cool design of 'ncdcc' on a BANDAGE. cool la sey (:

then dnt passed like whoosh.
guys were childish like usual. they off-ed the lights &didnt wna let me in at the first place.
but lyly is fierce &powerful (: so they let me in.
they stole A3 papers. quite stupid actually. so immature. k whatever.
then went home with myra. sang sang.
&it rained as expected. heh.

tution was alright. finshed the exercises last, as usual.
lyly stupid pee. learnt polygamy or smth?
what shit am i talking. seriously. polygamy? wher did that come from.

aniway,
happy birthday to izzah nazurah & shahirah (:
i love u guys lots lots. hope both of u had a nice birthday celebration today .

dude, without you ther's no one left. goodnight &sayonara (:

I REOPENED MY BLOG.
so people, dont be angry wimme oke.
i didnt delete. the past are far too precious to be forgotten (:
ciaos.

pics fr this week.

MELO TEMBAAAMM! (: bt cute uh okayee(:

hakim meryl milo myra khai syire kyra . aku sayang doranng okayye !

woohoo lyana ure pass in my comp :) k tanxxz ciao <3