"ur great enough already.. " whenever i read this, it gives me motivation okaay(:

raising a pioneer batch of cadets is so stressful. trainings tend to be diff. th way evth is, is different. short of manpower. double up evth, responsibilities, work. gah, sometimes i just wish i wasnt the one leading. sometimes i just wish im labelled as 'one of them'. i just wished im in some normal cca lyk guides or npcc who has a thousand years experience. where they have a solid training plan. with many seniors to help out th chairman cos deligating is important. i wish i had more seniors to provide motivation. not tht fawwaz &clarence isnt enough or he didnt give me any support. oke, it isnt enough. seeing other ccas lyk ncc and npcc, wow .

you know what, im gna make ncdcc th guard of honour one day. after we get th silver or gold award thing after 3 years, cos we're a pioneer batch. just wait and see. finish 3 yrs dah, &i'll make them th GOH. hehe . even if it means coming back as a clt. if i cant achieve my dreams to be in a GOH, then i'll train my cadets to make them th best. eh no, to make them better than me (:

ms foong, enough with your emotional breakdowns. if youre gona leave, do so. &when you come back, you'll see a solid and powerful ncdcc. &im gona hold on to this words. im gona make myself a better person. yay. no more playing arnd. im gona achieve th best fr me. im gna be happy. im not gona let people affect my daily life. im gona smile , cos i know i deserve it :)

with great power, comes great responsibility (:

such a long post eh . hehe . but still, i'll belief in &i still have hope in tht . cos hey, im th person i am today bcos of you. standing tall &Strong ! (:

heh , u know what. i feel much better. i dont think anyone's reading this long post aniway.
see, i told you i need to rant . im not even finished. heeeeh